I've a lot better about controlling my emotions, but I tend to feel them overwhelmingly strong at times.
Anger (Guts):
"Anger is a killing thing: it kills the man who angers, for each rage leaves him less than he had been before - it takes something from him." -Louis L'Amour
When I am angry, I do and say things that often are at the expense of myself for the emotion. Sometimes it manifests as a cool boiling simmer of my blood, and other times when I snap it's like a fucking nuclear bomb exploding. Depending on that level of rage, I can say things that cut deep like a blade, or if it comes down to violence; harm in ways that I sometimes regret and other times do not. I'll burn down bridges; anything to harm you as I feel slighted. And the worst part? As with sadness, there's almost a sick and twist pleasure that derives from it. It's about doing anything in the heat of the moment to face down your opponent at the time and win in any way possible, with burning rage. I suppose some of it even manifests even in blunt honesty.
I suppose when I think of anger, I think of Guts during the eclipse. Either that or Spear from Primal.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-XBmD4DiQAgDisgust (Jane):
Disgust is an interesting emotion in that it is more complex that it is initially presented. You can be disgusted by something as solid as a bad smell, the sight of something dead on the side of the road, a dirty bathroom, ect. But there are so many different reasons for disgust. There's also disgust with behavior. To approve of and disapprove of those around you almost to the point of revulsion. I suppose sometimes I am fervent in my disgust. And yet.. There moments that it leads to my sympathy; my compassion for something I see as almost pitiful and needing love and affection. I often challenge myself in my negative feelings for things around me that I dislike in addition to the things I do; for I might find someone to be a disgusting person, but then again, I could be seen as disgusting and repulsive. Even by virtue of being someone who indulges in alcohol. It's an interesting one, that's for sure. Sometimes, and often, there is a level of amusement to something or someone disgusting. I suppose that might be some kind of defense mechanism or whatever armchair psychologists want to boil it down to.
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