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What is something that gets you up in the morning? that thing that keeps your chin up, and pushes you to take that step forward towards your destiny?
i think we all have probably felt a lot of tension from all sorts of places, so I'm curious as to what you are looking forward to, or a goal you are striving for?
also feel free to share some music that makes you feel upbeat or pumped ^_^
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Sobriety is an interesting life. Interesting that is plagued with moments of emptiness. Yet, with something lost comes something gained.
I'm funnier, more insightful, physically and mentally stronger than when I am drinking and abusing my body. Yet there are moments where my loneliness creeps up on me and it manifests through anger, self-loathing, and self-destructive behavior. Normally I would be drowning bottle-deep in a Handle of Vodka right about now, but instead I focused on my screaming muscles, did a few stretches, and had a conversation with myself. I asked what it was I was feeling and why I was starting to feel sad. My eyes started to grow moist, and I could feel the cortisol leaking from my body. Regret; loss; death; and the callous and defensive need to tell everyone around me to fuck off no longer fueled by alcohol. It was quite a lot; to feel vulnerable within my own mind with nobody else around.
And then.. I felt better.
I have hope.
