I found out some stuff about myself recently, had an epiphany of sorts. Gained a bit of clarity about myself, connected some dots. I guess i'd like to share it here. It does get pretty real though, i'm very much bearing my soul here, and at times it will get very weird and strange, but i suppose this is the thread for it. Feel free to delete the comment if it ends up being too much. I'll totally understand.
So for a long time, i've been drawn to the strange and disturbing, and i never quite could put my finger on why. It wasn't sadistically thrilling or arousing, i'd kinda chalked it up to morbid curiosity. I've always been the curious sort. Eventually i considered that curiosity, morbid or otherwise, a core part of who i am. In a sense, i still do, but i have a better sense of what it truly is now. I've consumed a lot of horrible, horrible media. Nothing illegal, but things that would make people's skin crawl. Things that would break people with less experience in these matters or less resolve. I never quite got why though, even when it was painful to go through, but now i know. I seek these things out myself, and consume them myself, in private. Putting that to the side for now, i want to establish the concept of the normie filter.
For those who don't know, "normie" is slang for a normal person. People whose natures fit the expected mold of society, a straight shooter, so to speak. A normie filter then, is an element of a piece of media designed to deter a normie from getting too involved in that piece of media. Think black mirror's pilot. Something that would disturb and upset the normies and keep them away. This means a piece of media can then go on to tell it's story to those who are willing to truly listen and appreciate without fear of normie retribution, since normies wouldn't get on the bandwagon in the first place, and from then on you don't need to worry about them as a demographic. This is important, because the more widespread and popular a piece of media is, the more popular culture sands down it's edges, trims it's claws and file's it's teeth. harshness and meaning are inextricably stripped away when it becomes the normie center of attention, normies will inevitably sand it and mold it until it's comfortable, harmless, tasteless, meaningless slop. In other words, popularity and accessibility is the inevitable death of true art, at least if the artist is willing to make those considerations, which i think is the case the vasPost too long. Click here to view the full text.