>>1191806I'm a video sme, maybe. Though it's funny you mention "not wa ting to be a goody two shoes". Maybe I am just a very soft boie, but when I play games with moral choices, I tend to have to make a very conscious decision from the beginning if I want it more mean or selfish. I lean fairly naturally to the typical "good gut" choices, not just because it's what you usually do in games.
In stuff like TTRPGs though, "Chaotic Neutral" as a whole should practically be banned. Nobody knows how the hell to play it, and it's just became an unofficial title for "I want an excuse to be a munchkin and a murder hobo and will whine for hours like a four year old if you point out I create very not-fun issues for the rest of the party this way".
>>1191812Lina is indeed d a great example. Her "evil" moments and reputations are usually more the result of her having a temper, a tendency to not think things through as well as she likes to pretend, an ego and far too high level magic to go with all of it more than an active desire to be mean. Plenty of moments where you can see she is, at her core, decently well intentioned... She just also wants rewards for everything she does and gets real mad when things go south for her somehow or people underestimate her.
God I need to watch Slayers again.