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I can't rant. I'm too dissociated. And tired. But boy do I really want to rant. Maybe I need Ewen Cameron's "complete depatterning" done on me. I sometimes wonder if things would be better if my mind was wiped to a clean slate. Now, I just hope to live up to the standards of my boyfriend. Shite, I'm in Las Vegas enjoying First World luxuries. Now I feel like an ungrateful prick. Am I happy? Yes, I think I do, but not to the level I should be if I wasn't traumatized. Oh um, I'm ranting, right? I guess that's what's on my mind now. I'm not very eloquent, especially around this time, but it's what it is. Pardon me if this thread wasn't too pleasant. I wanted to get it off my chest.