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It's an open question - could be personal projects, learning, self improvement, games and shows you're in the middle of, hobbies you're developing. Whatever you are moving from one state to another.

For me, i've got a lot of things in motion. A few off the top of my head:

i'm gonna start the Discworld books. They're supposed to be really good, so i'm excited about that.

i'm putting a lot of work into becoming an expert in some of the tools at work. We really don't have any super knowledgeable person on the team, so i decided i'd become that person.

i'm working on learning character voices. i think it would be really fun for some of the rp-y stuff i've been doing lately.

Something a little different, i am trying to become more extroverted. i realized something the other day, i have a choice in it. Even if i'm not socially energized like an extrovert, nothing is stopping me from being outgoing anyway. It's a bit tiresome, but i have the power to define myself however i want and that's what i decided i am.

That's enough about me. What's your movement look like lately?


Those sound pretty cool. What 'tools at work' are you learning?


I'm trying to learn guitar. It's nice.


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I keep working on my knife skills.
Chef complimented my chicken and omelet today so that felt good.
Good reviews on my brownies the other day as well.
Tomorrow is my first dinner service so that will be interesting.

This one is convincing me to take up the violin.

Other than that I am trying to write a bit more, it looks like the DnD campaign I wanted to do will never happen so I am considering turning it into a novel.

And I want to get better at art.

Lastly, I dusted off my language books.


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sounds like you have a lot of awesome things in the works! you will be a jack-of-all-trades voice actor! sounds awesome! that reminds me that i need to make a demo reel of voices too :PP

>hugs and kajis <3

i got a few things in the works right now, although i try not to talk about them too much, cause i tend to stop working on things when i tell people, and it's annoying T_T

but i am working on a project, preplanning another project, and saving money so that i can make an important change in my life ^^

when i hear "knife skills" i have a very different mental image that really highlights our different career paths XDD

>hugs and kajis <3

mmmm brownies <3

oooh fun!

>hugs and kajis <3

what songs can you play so far?


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Uh... the C scale?


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got to get those foundational scales!

lifehack: learning scales makes guitar solos possible!


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I can do both.


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i can also do both... if you give me pre-made brownie mix ><


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I always am available to be hired as a private chef.


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ooooh really? that's awesome!

what are your rates?


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You buy the ingredients and let me stay that night.


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i have 20 cases of steak-ums and a lot of hamburger helper


Do you have flour, eggs, salt, pepper, a tomato, milk, and a lemon?


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my gut says maybe!


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Well then I can maybe make lasagna and I'll supply the wine.


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i don't really like lasagna...

but i'll be happy to have wine with you ^^


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Im working on my girlfriend's engagement ring. I started the ringbox tonight. Bolivian Rosewood. It's going to be an egg because the ring is a dragon. I've made two so I can have options. The teak oil really draws out the color.


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Then I need four steakums, salt, pepper, rosemary, WD40, a potato, and brown sugar.


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aww <3 that's wonderful!

so much work to make something so beautiful for her! she's gonna be absolutely in awe <3

okay, i definitely know i have that!

what are you gonna make with that?


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Beef Welly


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I can't wait to finish it and present it to her


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>Beef Welly
oooh i never had beef wellington before! i've always wanted to try it!

is WD40 really an ingredient?

it is an absolutely marvelous gift <3

that is amazingly special that you decided to make the gift yourself! like that just infuses it with more genuine love and will be so much more remembered <3




It is for making your oven go vroom.


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Also I agree with OP on extroversion. Energized by it or not, I think it can be considered a skill like any other.


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will the wedding ring be made out of unobtanium?

umm... will the oven work after it goes vroom?

i agree, and have employed that in my normal life. people often don't believe me when i tell them i'm an introvert and i don't want to see people for days on end ><

maybe i should make a tik tok account

whaddya'll think?


The same for me.

I don't know what that is. You should do it.


Tbh it's pretty much something I've been trying to work on for a while too.


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People still tell me I'm pretty quiet or evasive, but I'm managing a lot more moments of charisma. More in person than online.

Online is hard.


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I'm working on a few game projects, as usual.  None of which will ever be finished, most likely, but it's fun to work on them.


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Nah, just silver, but I'm smelting the sterling myself.

I wanna meet you in person someday


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What makes online hard?

Often people describe me as introverted, but I generally like being around people. My personal problem is I often feel as though my social 'efforts' are unrequited. I kind of subjectively feel like a jester who is forced to entertain others or take interest in their lives, or to be charismatic or whatever but they have no interest in me. Or they are merely amused by the jester. And as soon as I get too tired for the jester it's suddenly all my fault for not being social enough. I like being around people but they piss me off so much and are so demanding or I feel rejected. That's the subjective feeling anyway.


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Alrighty! Well first of all thanks for summing up the majority of my social insecurities. Though I should say that your company has always made these places a bit friendlier in my opinion.

And in a large part I use my body to communicate. Sometimes I'll end up writing gibberish and I won't realize it until after, when what my brain parsed had a lot of vocalizations and body movements and I haven't even bothered thinking about the words. Being able to get up and move around is certainly comfortable, but I still depend a lot on the non-verbal. Plus I have a nasty habit of overloading myself.

Of course! If I end up in your neck of the woods I'd absolutely drop by!


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ooo! discworld is great! are you reading them in any particular order? once you get to “the watch” series you’ll meet one of my favourite characters!

i’m just working on some art myself!


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I have a few things I want to do. Mainly I want to read more and also get back into drawing.

But before I can do those, I desperately need to be more well rested. I feel like my current cycle is wake up tired -> go to work -> come home tired -> veg until bed time -> wake up tired, then repeat endlessly.

Have no idea what to do. Feel like no matter what I always am way too exhausted to do anything I wanna do.


Got a couple of artists!


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Funny. I understand body Language more than words anyway. My OC Rainstream actually speaks out loud very seldom, opting for facial or body cues more often than not


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I suppose lack of non-verbal cues is the obvious answer...


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Studying for a work related exam
trying to get into online contacts more
watching/reading stuff as I feel like as usual
picked up doing qi gong at home


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It's all specialized, first party stuff. So it's hard to describe most of the kind of stuff i use. But one example is a tool we use for running experiments and doing statistical analysis. Most people know the basics of data analysis using it, but nobody really understands the depths of that tool.

Very cool! Where are you in that journey?

How does one measure advancement in knife skills? How much higher could you take it than you are at now?

Are you looking into being a voice actor? Do you have a character type you want to voice?

Why would you stop working on a thing if you told someone? i'm usually the opposite, if i tell someone something i feel more accountable to doing it.


Lately, it's mostly videos. I got my work videos for Screenrant and the ones I make myself for my own channel to work on - since my upload dates are on Sundays that means the next one will fall on Valentines Day, so I have one written I gotta work on basically lal of this coming week where I am not doing Screenrant work.

Other than that? I dunno, whatever I decide to draw for a pre-Valentine stream that no one watches, I guess.


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Wow, that's really cool! How's progress on the ring going?

Yes, it's a skill and i decided i would learn it. i used to wonder about the authenticity of being one way or another, but decided i don't need to highly value social interaction in order to be an enthusiastic participant.

Sometimes the process itself is the end goal. What is this new game like?

i don't even like being around people! i think if i were to choose based on my desires, i'd not participate in society at all.

i get that idea you state about being the jester. But i don't care if others think i'm the fool anymore. If my outgoingness is not reciprocated, that's their loss. Conversely, and if they demand more than i'm offering up that's too bad. It took time to get myself to this point, but i really have no want for other people's approval. It's a good place to be imo.

Starting with the first two for sure. After that, i understand i can take them on in any order. But without direction i'd just go on to the third book and so forth.

Have you read them all? It's quite the lengthy series. What's your favorite book/books in the series?

Have you been tested for sleep apnea? Doing a sleep study and being properly treated is a life changer for sufferers.

i find i'm always tired too, despite having been treated for sleep apnea. But i'm also never really "crashed" like others. i once described my energy level as "always hungry, never starving". Being always tired is unfortunate, but i totally abuse the "never starving" side of things to get things done and be productive in situations others would be useless.

Another one you might wanna get checked for is Sluggish Cognitive Tempo. Very few people have heard of SCT, but could be your issue and if so diagnosis and treatment will help.

What stuff do you feel like watching and reading?

What's qi gong?

You got a lot of cool skills. i'm interested in getting into that kind of stuff but i've never been able to figure it out.

Hope the vids and steam go well.


Which part? I can always try to tell you where you might wanna start. Not that I'm any kind of special at any of it.

I mean they're usually fine. Screenrant is work, so there's routine there, I try to just do my thing on my own video while YouTube continues to make sure no views come out of it, but whatever I guess.


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i'd start at digital arts. My main issues have been trying to understand the way to use layers and layer effects and which kinds of brushes are good for what. i never have gotten over the hump of learning to use the tools correctly.

In terms of videos, i don't really have a direction for those yet but i think it would be cool to learn a little basic animation and tell some stories. Chipflake and Jaiden are some i like and would imitate. But odds are i'd never have the time for that when i'm working full time.


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My days on work is usually, wake up at 7/8 in the morning
work until 8 in the evening
Go for a walk

Fall asleep, rinse and repeat.
At some point, I could get myself to learn something in private. but that's not been an option for the last few months.


Well first off, don't worry too much about brush types to start with. I barely change up my brushes in the first place, but just learning to use brushes at all comes before trying to play around too much with brush types.

As for layers, think of how you've seen old school animators work . how they have a bunch of papers on a lightboard, meaning they can see everything that's on the paper, but are only ever actually drawing or erasing on one at a time. That's what digital layers are. Each of them is a piece of paper, and whichever one you have selected is the one you are working on, without fiddling with the rest. But you can always see all of them at once because your canvas is your lightboard.

What you want to consider is what goes above and below what. If you¨re drawing a person wearing a shirt, you¨re going to want to draw the shirt on a layer "on top of" the body. When you color, you
ll want that shirt color layer to be above your skin color layer. So on, so forth.

It's certainly easier to show than tell, but try and think of it that way. Building something piece by piece from the top and downwards.

Do you have any tablets at all you could start with? You CAN do digital art with a mouse and the right tool,s but it is cumbersome, and there are perfectly fine 80 dollar starting tablets I would recommend.

I haven't tried much animation myself and am not familiar with chipflake, so I can't help you there.


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So, you do nothing different every single day? Not even going through any games or shows or books?

i understand the really basic rules of layers. i'm thinking about how people use styles to get certain effects. You can do lighting and shading that way. Do masking, do other things.

You're answer to that is probably to experiment and try myself, maybe read a tutorial. Which just bores me. i wish i could sit down with an expert with the tool and watch them, get hands on instruction, feedback, direction, etc. Trying to figure it out watching random videos or steams is exhausting.

i actually have a nice intermediate level tablet. Dropped some dollars on that years ago but didn't get very far, hit a wall when i couldn't figure out how to create effects i wanted to make. Bored myself to death watching videos to help and just shelved it.

i should really pick it up again. But i need to figure out why it will go differently this time.


This is the reason I hold my classes. Tutorials ARE a good way to learn, but it's not always super ideal. I suppose the closest I could do was find some way to show my screen in Discord or the like.

Thing is, I only understand exactly how osme of the layer effects work myself - I often just scroll through and see what they do. I hardly have the encyclopedic knowledge you seem to be expecting.


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We have different modes of working then. As i was saying about my job, i want to learn the complete depth of the tools my job uses. i do not enjoy working at less that full efficiency and comprehension. The more often i feel slowed or blocked from doing what i want the less likely i will stick with doing a thing. i'm fine with needing to hone my craft through practice, but i do insist on understanding of my tools and how they can be used. That's my deal.


I love the art style of those pictures, by the way


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Yes, i feel much the same.


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>Never cared for others approval
I never did either. But that has precisely been my downfall. Eventually people in positions of power decided that they didn't like me enough and I have received tangible consequences for it. I never did anything wrong, but I never sought their approval and so they had no reason to provide their approval for the things I wanted to do on multiple occasions. It's dumb but you've got to not care what others think while taking careful consideration of what others think. It doesn't matter if you're a genius or an athlete if you can't influence the right people to provide you better resources or whatever you need. Very few people have acheived great things alone and if you need people on your side then you need to be able to influence them.

Besides as I said I am a person who desires relationships so having better social skills only means I get to attract better people. In theory anyway. Either way my approach of being my free self has yet to attract the kinds of friends and relationships I desire, so I have to change something. I may hate being a jester but jester I must embrace.


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i do care a lot about my job and part of that is developing my relationships with people at work. Kinda a different thing than i was thinking when i said that.

What are the kinds of friends and relationships you desire? How have people fell short before?


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Fair enough. I acknowledge that being hung up on what others think isn't good either.

Shrug, as I said I don't feel as though many appreciate me for me so much as for what I can do for them. I feel as though I constantly have to initiate things and when they either grow bored of what I provide them or I get tired of giving it they just move on.


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i feel you. i'm rather used to the idea that people will move on from me. People be inconsistent and flaky, don't want to invest in the friendship in an open and honest way. i don't take it personally, but it makes me realize you can only expect so much and i will try and enjoy people for what they have to offer while i can.

The thing is - i am saying that, you are saying that, and i wouldn't be surprised if many of the people we've been friends with are saying it. So, why are we all seeking the same thing and never finding it? i have put a lot of thought into that, and i don't have good answers.


I like seeing them around


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Oh? Well i like seeing you around!


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but i love hearing about you!!

i ... hm... i have... hm...


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The echidnas paradox or whatever.

But I don't know what to say either. I feel as though I'm trying as hard as I can and trying to find ways to do things better.

To be honest my main fantasy at the moment to adopt a doberman when I start a new job. Always have something then.


I'll occasionally keep a game going with my closest friends where I'll say nothing of consequence to see how many hours pass before they realize I've said nothing at all.

I usually win.


Well.... this.


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Yeah, people can be fickle.


I think I *could* alter others, but it would seem a bit disgusting to me to do so.


Then be disgusted in yourself? Or rather do it anyway and learn not to be disgusted.

Someone once told me it can feel manipulative at first, but as you practice it, it becomes more natural. Who are we other than who we choose to be? We can change and choose to be a better more social adept person if we choose to do so. That nee person can be as authentic as the old person. It doesn't have to be disingenuous.

And what is manipulation? Is cheering someone up manipulation? It technically might be. Is it bad?

Anyway. Probably enough soapboxing my perspective today.


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If you want to hear more about me, you gotta pay the piper. Tell me a few things about your going ons first.

Animals are good, honest, don't play games or get bored of you. If only we could all strive to be more like them.

i need to think on this more. i'm a solutions kind of person and i know there's something that can be done.

Ooo, what's this about? Can you sum it up?

How do you know that they don't instantly realize what you are doing but just appreciate being around you anyway?

We are really nothing but a collection of learned behaviors that we've picked up from others over the years anyway. sometimes i notice myself acting in ways i picked up from abusive people i've known and ponder what to make of that.


A longhaul audiobook of a very long fanfic. Which I haven't actually finished reading, and for the most part read ahead a chapter or two before I record it. I've done a bunch of small and medium-length audiobooks and radio plays, but I wanted to do something that might be a magnum opus - or at least something with being proud of, and let's be honest, Fallout: Equestria has gone past being a well-trodden road and is a straight-up trench by this point.

That said, you mentioned something about learning character voices? I do make collab works here and there, would you be interested in helping if the opportunity arises?


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Yep. I want to teach her cool tricks and I'll always have doggy cuddles.


Hm... Possible.

I never ignore the possibility I'm being fucked around with.


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Oh, that is very cool! i'm curious why you selected this if you haven't even read it all the way through. Did the author request it of you? Or are you already that convinced that it's the project you want to take on?

That's a really interesting offer! i'm not against it, i would certainly be willing to hear any proposals. Just know that i currently am not very far into that as a hobby. All i've really done is watch several videos from New York vocal coaching and tried practicing some exercises and learning about the parts which comprise a voice. In other words, i have not really developed much of anything quite yet to offer that isn't in my default range.

i was very happy when i was finally settled into my adult life enough that i could take on animal companionship. My cat is a constant that i need in my life to thrive. i will weather the rest of this existence so long as we have each other.

Good luck in your own quest for a reliable companion!

That's one way to put it!


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oh gosh, pay the piper

i... hm... well my sister is home! it is almost Chinese New year, so i am thinking what to cook c:


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What is on the menu? Will you be preparing it all yourself? For how many people?

Alright, with that much i will throw out there that i am working on my handwriting. i think there's a simple pleasure in producing a clear, consistent, balanced page of words.


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Yeah unfortunately my career ambitions have held me back from being able to keep a pet. Truth be told the doberman is still a fantasy. But I grew up with cats as a child and they're great.


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How is it a fantasy? What is in the way? Do you not have enough time to dedicate to being a responsible owner because of your career?


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For the most part, it just caught my eye - I'm not nearly horsefamous enough that people would actually ask me to read their stories. While the whole thing developed into an adventure story with a fair amount of plot detail, it's the scenery and overall writing that drew me in at the outset. The author's description of the story overall helped quite a bit as well, and judging from the comments from those who seem to have finished the entire story, it seems to be at the very least a decent one.

It also helps that it's in relatively easily digestible chapters - that means that I can also treat it as vocal calisthenics, something to attempt each day to keep in shape, and a fairly obtainable goal, given that my other, more complex projects have suffered from... let's call them scheduling setbacks.

As for your own skills... the best advice I can offer is the same most actual experts will give you. Just start. Don't expect to be great right out of the gate. Don't even expect to be remotely good {though if you are, so much the better!}. Simply keep at it, and you'll get better, even if inpercepibly so, as you do.


Pretty much yeah. Unfortunately pets aren't toys that I can keep under the bed.


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i think that is pretty cool <3

on the ... menu. i think, we will steam a fish! That is traditional! also, maybe... we will make a big soup of some kind, usually with seaweed and seafood!

hm... lots of veggies of many different kinds!

when you write, do you use, brush?


That was too much.

People are good folks in general. I like them.


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Ah, neat. I used to read a few short fan fics back in the day. But haven't tried any in a long time.

So what got you into doing readings like this? It's a little different, but kinda cool.

Truth. i very much despise when people treat their pets as objects and don't provide for their wellbeing.

i use a fountain pen. i haven't tried brushes before. i don't think i would be good enough to try that. Have you?

It was as much as you felt necessary in the moment. It doesn't phase me either way, though i am unsure how to respond to such a thing. What kind of thoughts or feelings back a statement like that, i wonder.


Fatigue and doubt.


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You wanna talk about it, or you good?


Nah, I'm cool. I pulled it back in.


What happened? Did you lose interest? No longer have the time? Can't find stories that interest you anymore?

As for me, it kinda started on the MLP Forums site; one of the then-mods had the idea for live readings, and I volunteered. The project itself fell through fairly quickly - partly due to scheduling and mostly due to lack of interest - but it turned out that I rather enjoyed the activity, so I gradually started recording stories on my own and posting them on the site's channel.


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Doesn't exactly sound healthy, but you do you boo.

A little of all of the above i'd say. Probably having to put long hours into the job was the final nail. But i did get a kick out of it for a while, it's cool the community has so many talented writers.


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it's something that i wanted to be when i was a bit younger, i actually have a pretty wide range of voices i can do. i also took a voice and articulation class in college to manipulate my voice. I tended to favor more of the pre and post-production stuff of film, but i will happily put up a demo reel when i got the time ^^

it's actually a very interesting psychological phenomena.

here's a video on it!

now the tldr is that by telling somebody our goals makes us less likely to do it because when we tell others our goals, we get that positive affirmation from others and feel good without actually doing work. so when we get the reward without the action, and the actual act of doing becomes less rewarding to do

and the threat of accountability to me only becomes a real drive if i stand to suffer greatly, or get rewarded greatly. otherwise i know i can rationalize myself out of those things unless i really want to do it


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i've never felt positive over telling someone that i had a goal. Maybe that's how it works for most people, but that's not me. i'm honestly a little confused what the reward is in this interaction in the first place.

All that said though, if it's a system that works for you that's great! Whatever it takes to get yourself from point a to b.


Anime, manga, but also stuff on consciousness and mental states.

That one fareastern movement and breathing exercise.


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Mental states?


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Since early October, I have been reading a whole lot more than usual, especially after my mother's passing. On days when the grief and depression hadn't been too crippling, the only thing I seemed to be able to muster up some motivation to do (when not high) has been reading.

And it's all non-fiction of course. I've been hyperfocused on the topic of schizophrenia and schizoaffectice disorder ever since (indirectly) witnessing her have a meltdown while I was there, and trying to find resources for her boyfriend to know what to do to help when she starts dissociating.

I guess I just deal with some fears and anxious preoccupations best when I can feel like a student studying the problem, so I can be better equipped to handle the problem with her, just in case, and not feel helpless ... but boy does studying about this stuff just make me feel helpless considering other complicating factors in her life.

Been reading a book that was free on Amazon prime called "Surviving Schizophrenia: A family guide and manual" and it's been depressing. Especially the fact that it frequently gives advice for how to deal will mental health stigmas when trying to get treatment for your schizophrenic loved one, not just for their condition but also for nearly any other health condition they might suffer from, especially since many doctors will chalk up symptoms at that point to psychotic delusion and somatic hallucination.

At the beginning of the book it has a series of detailed personal accounts of what it's like to suffer psychosis and now I am significantly preoccupied with reading as many first-hand accounts of psychosis so I can wrap my head around what my niece could be going through. I just really really wish I could empathize, not being schizophrenic (or bipolar) myself.

Sometimes love hurts I guess.


I'd say attempting to understand it properly is a pretty big step too, though.


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I was already familiar with it before. In the early 2000s, I was briefly a psychology major and studied the disease in a course on abnormal psychology. Though I never really studied it in depth, especially since I switched majors.

After my niece had her first psychosis in 2016, I was mostly scared and kinda scared to participate in supporting her for fear of fucking up, plus just the painful irony of having this happen despite my choice to avoid becoming a therapist.

Earlier this year she caught covid and struggled with symptoms of that for months and the stress of that almost sent her into a psychotic episode earlier this year and that's got me motivated to learn, almost to an obsessive degree, just in case in the future (say, if they want to come visit) I could at least know what I am doing if trying to help my niece if she ever needs it.  


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You know, highs and flows and terrors etc.


I'd consider that pretty admirable.


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Reading into this subject is a coping mechanism, to help you feel capable of handling this stressful, scary situation. But is there really any more you can learn at this point? At what point does this behavior go from productive for her sake to harmful to you? If you're spending your only energy and motivation on this and have been doing so for months, that doesn't sound very healthy to me.

It's not my business what you spend your time reading, but i don't get the impression that this brings value or serves to improve your life. i personally found that i can't truly help others until i've helped myself. In the same way emotional eating can be addressed by tackling the emotional need behind it, i'd think about what the emotional need is here and what other avenues exist or could be obtained to address it.


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>i'm putting a lot of work into becoming an expert in some of the tools at work. We really don't have any super knowledgeable person on the team, so i decided i'd become that person.
That's an excellent way to improve the quality of your professional life.

What are you doing to become more extroverted?


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i probably should say becoming more outgoing. i don't think i can really change how extroverted i am, but i can change my behavior to put more effort into making connections and making social interaction happen.

To that effect, i made this thread for one. i reached out to an old coworker to do some games last night. And i invited myself over to my brother's house last weekend.

So, it's more about my choices than my internal feelings about socializing. i don't think i'll ever be a person who loves socializing, but i can at least take pro social actions.


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it basically is you get the praise for saying you are doing something

"oooh you are making a youtube video! that's exciting!"

"ooh! you are finally going to submit for that job! awesome!"

"oooh you are going to finally move to that place you want to go to! i hope it's awesome"

and then it shoots the feel good juice in your brain, and it's as though you did the thing, without doing the thing

so now doing the thing, which often requires work, frustration, moments of boredom, ect. then turns you off, cause it don't feel as good as the very simple act of saying your goal

so basically, telling your goal is like junk food; tasty and addicting, but not nutritionally fulfilling. whereas the act of doing is like brocolli; not everyones favorite food, but filled with the vitamins and nutrients to make you healthy!


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Ah, well this sounds like a case of two kinds of people. Because i most certainly wouldn't feel anything from the praise you give as an example. i feel good from accomplishment and i feel bad by failing to meet expectations. Ergo, communicating my goals loudly and openly is the best method to accomplishing them.


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that's fair, and a very real difference between us. i wish i was a bit more like that, cause it would be nice to just feel the satisfaction from getting the job done and not also from the praise of others. but alas i deal with the cards i got

anywho, how are you? having a lovely evening/morning/whatever time of day it is for you?


Social motivation sounds complicated


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it certainly is! but fortunately if i'm by myself, none of that really  matters ^^

>hugs and kajis <3

i'm heading to bed! goodnight wheat ^^


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Truly, we are all beholden to our cards. Mine give me a particular useful skill set, but that comes with its own costs too.

i'm having a rather fine night. Just tidying up my place and getting some life maintenance done. Gonna make some cookie dough to bake tomorrow in a moment. Need to find time to lift some weights and practice my handwriting as well in the next couple hours.

Night Noelle


nighty night ^^




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I admire/envy all you guys for your motivation/energy.
I am not working on anything.

When I get home from work I struggle to make dinner and then I'm brain-dead until I hit the hay.


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I never said my thing. So I'm looking forward to my next tattoo session tomorrow.

It'll be weird being bottomless in public for so long but I still really want to see the final design.


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Well that's certainly how I've been lately.


What of?

I've had that day plenty lately too.


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More mice and stuff on my hip to join my thigh and rib pieces.



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Thought you were saying something in Danish at first.


Nah our language isn't THAT weird


I'd wager that's most of us occupied folks most of the time, we just talk about the exceptions.

Eshie, I...


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That's a good place to begin. A few years ago it dawned on me as well (after I had moved out of my hometown) that being able to network is as much a practical skill as, say, changing a tire. That is, you can treat is as a procedure with a utility outcome and thus minimize your anxiety with regard to its success.  


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Foe the last two years I've had a single, monolithic project in the works: A tabletop roleplaying game called Miracle.

The game is a d12 science-fantasy about a global utopia of peace, science, and progress, that is threatened by becoming dystopia.
It is a game about hope, initiative, and the goodness of common people, putting us into both the problem and the solution.

Just about every single day for 1-2 hours at a time I would type-away at this game. The game is technically already finished, but the working copy is just a .pdf written from a Google-doc, which is why it's taking more than two years; the next one is being remade in Affinity Publisher.

The current project is over 160 pages of long of just lore. I recently began transference of the mechanics section to the new document.

Right now the game is pay-what-you -want.


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A little bit more, actually.
The game puts positive aspects towards freedom of choice and association, along with rewarding your choices to make hybrid-builds.
Remember the part where I said it's a science-fantasy? This means that there is magic and technology coexisting. They've become friends and are now being put together to make a brighter future.
You can be a gunslinger, a fire mage, a rocketeer, an alchemist, a bounty hunter, an enchanter, a mech-pilot, a beast tamer, a spy, an orator, a driver, a ninja, or any combination of the previously mentioned.

The lore features
- 12 different natures.
- 4 key races.
- 6+ spoken languages.
- 8000 years of foundational lore.
- 12 core abilities.
- 24 skills.
- 12+ different trainings you can take up.
- 13 different schools of magic.
- 23 canonical deities.
- 50+ pages of content, including weapons, armor, vehicles, spells, components, and gadgets.

Magic in this game is partially inspired by Avatar's element-bending and JRPG's. As you learn new spells, over time they grow with your abilities.

Technology includes sentient androids, laser weapons, flying cars, hyper-trains, flying cities, space travel, jet-packs, underground super-farms, geothermal powerplants, fusion-reactors, plasteel, and so on.


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Gotta love dem days where the work you otherwise planned to be able to do with time to spare runs into ten thousand issues at once and you end up working till 8 PM and still not being done



Oh you know me. Stuff and things.

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