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 No.963354[Last 50 Posts]

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Merry Christmas everyone! I'm feeling a bit more introspective today, and I want to talk about the things that are just on our minds.

What have you been thinking about? What has been giving you joy, pain, anxiety, or contentment? What's going on?

 No.963355

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I am pretty sure it isn't Christmas yet.
Your calendar is off by some days.

 No.963356

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>>963355
i regret to inform you, but it is indeed christmas here soon. and i would hate to miss the next few weeks of christmas goodness on false information

 No.963357

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>>963356
Are you Australia?  I heard their calendar is upside there down under.

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>>963357
no, i'm not from australia, i'm from the US myself.

although that particular picture is hilarious!

>falls into the sun

classic XDD

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>>963360
hey wheat!

>hugs and kajis <3

how are you this lovely christmasy day?

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>>963361
Just got home. Having a cup of tea.

What's on an introspective Star Kris's mind tonight?

 No.963363

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NASA wants to build permanent facilities on the moon to serve as a jumping off point to Mars.

Current 2024 projections seem to be encountering some setbacks, but I like that there's progress being attempted again.

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>>963362
a cup of tea sounds lovely <3

i'm always introspective to a degree, but i never express it, but i just remember last night, i had a bit of a spat with a friend. we made up and got over it. but the topic of the argument was one that was distinctly personal to me, and unfortunately my friend is of the opposite mindset.

so while we did diplomatically talked it over, i still can't help but think that i feel alone in the world ://

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>>963363
i wanna live on the moon <3

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>>963363
I like the CisLunar 1000 project better. I'm with Buzz Aldrin.

>>963364
Do you feel like going into specifics will simply exacerbate that loneliness? Or are you just hesitant to bring up a touchy subject without being prodded?

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>>963365
That might be hazardous to your health. I imagine what staff a permanent facility would have would be temporary. Largely automated and only staffed in preparation for missions to Mars.

Mars might be okay.

>>963366
It's also a good idea!

 No.963368

Why so introspective?

 No.963369

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>>963366
well it's a touchy subject. one that i feel comfortable with, but one that also invites a lot of argument.

but i'll go ahead and put it into a hide box

when i say i live in a very conservative area, i am not exacerbating. the area i live in is extremely right wing and christian to a very high degree, which for a left-leaning socialist as myself means i'm very isolated

but i still have great friends, wonderful friends. but friends that still are very much on the other side of things. Right-wing, and ESPECIALLY christian viewpoints.

well we were hanging out the other day, and just looking up art and videos, and one picture was of Yang Xiao Long from RWBY. now she WAS my friends favorite character in that show, and he always had a crush on her. But recent developements and comments from the show creators really show that they are fans and supporters of the BumblBY ship, or BlakeXYang.

because of this, he was very depressed and saying stuff like "now when i see her, i get super depressed and i just want to think of her."

He typically likes to think of characters he cares for as single so he can mentally ship them with himself.

but i just kept kinda prodding him and saying "couldn't you just be happy for her now?" and he says "how can i be when she's going to hell?"

i didn't immediately react, but i did feel rather attacked. He knows i'm a queer man, and he knows how integral that identity is to me. when he left the room, i started downloading pictures of Yang so he would see it. and i was just like "i'm downloadin pics of her because she needs a little love" and he said "are you saying that you don't think i like her anymore?" and i said "well you did say you think she is going to hell. what do you think, i'm going to hell?"

basically that was the heart of the argument. and he was deeply apologetic. unlike most christians i met, he has explained his views in a purely logical standpoint, and even though i don't agree with it, i know that he doesn't let that take away his humanity. but still, i am having trouble coming to terms that my best friend thinks i'm going to hell.

he's still my friend, and i'm still going to hang out with him and whatnot. but at the same time, it just is a reminder that i'm very alone here in this town, in this part of the world, and it really sucks.


>>963367
hmmm... I'M GONNA LIVE ON THE SUN!

>>963368
i got into a spat with a friend of mine, and while things are chill now, i can't help but feel rather lonely ://

>hugs and kajis <3

 No.963370

>>963369
Fair enough. What over?

 No.963371

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>>963369
Also hazardous!

 No.963372

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>>963370
when i say i live in a very conservative area, i am not exacerbating. the area i live in is extremely right wing and christian to a very high degree, which for a left-leaning socialist as myself means i'm very isolated

but i still have great friends, wonderful friends. but friends that still are very much on the other side of things. Right-wing, and ESPECIALLY christian viewpoints.

well we were hanging out the other day, and just looking up art and videos, and one picture was of Yang Xiao Long from RWBY. now she WAS my friends favorite character in that show, and he always had a crush on her. But recent developements and comments from the show creators really show that they are fans and supporters of the BumblBY ship, or BlakeXYang.

because of this, he was very depressed and saying stuff like "now when i see her, i get super depressed and i just want to think of her."

He typically likes to think of characters he cares for as single so he can mentally ship them with himself.

but i just kept kinda prodding him and saying "couldn't you just be happy for her now?" and he says "how can i be when she's going to hell?"

i didn't immediately react, but i did feel rather attacked. He knows i'm a queer man, and he knows how integral that identity is to me. when he left the room, i started downloading pictures of Yang so he would see it. and i was just like "i'm downloadin pics of her because she needs a little love" and he said "are you saying that you don't think i like her anymore?" and i said "well you did say you think she is going to hell. what do you think, i'm going to hell?"

basically that was the heart of the argument. and he was deeply apologetic. unlike most christians i met, he has explained his views in a purely logical standpoint, and even though i don't agree with it, i know that he doesn't let that take away his humanity. but still, i am having trouble coming to terms that my best friend thinks i'm going to hell.

he's still my friend, and i'm still going to hang out with him and whatnot. but at the same time, it just is a reminder that i'm very alone here in this town, in this part of the world, and it really sucks.


>>963371
I'M GONNA WALK ON THE SUUUUUUUUUUUUUN

I'M GONNA TELL EVERYONEEEEE

TO LIGHTEN UPPPPPPPPPPPPP!

what non-earth planet would you live on?

 No.963373

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I'm pretty much always thinking about things.

Like how this past weekend I got stoned for the first time since 1997 and the fact that I went to a nude beach. All that has led to a couple of days wondering about my sense of identity and who I am going to be in the next chapter of my life.

 No.963374

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>>963373
you are really becoming a true blue hippy, andrea!

>hugs and kajis <3

what do you think this new chapter in your life is going to hold?

 No.963376

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>>963374

I don't know, and I don't think I really have a grasp on how to predict anything.

If you had asked me in 2009 about where things would go in the decade afterwards. I certainly wouldn't have predicted that I would have ever gotten into a relationship with a guy, I wouldn't have predicted that I would have ever come out as transgender, or moved to California, nor have predicted that I would actually follow through with learning to play guitar,  or that I would have ever become a fan  of pet parrots, or a number of things.

But like, with how Thorax has changed in the years I've known him, and the fact that that is probably going to have influences on me as long as I am in a relationship with him, I wonder if the me from 2009 would potentially recognize me, whomever I become, by 2029

 No.963377

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I've been thinking about what I would look for in a marriage partner lately. Thinking about my goals for life. What do I want? What do I want to do? what are some things I'm not willing to sacrifice?

Coming off of a bad breakup 4 years ago, I've finally gotten over her. Finally started to think about who *I* want to be again, instead of who she wanted. I realize she never sacrificed for me. She only called when it was convenient. She never traveled for me. I learned to dance for her, I traveled many miles, I drove for hours, I set up an amazing first date. She was a lot of fun, but she never did anything for me that was hard to do. I've only just seen that four years after we broke up. She was really something, but then again, maybe she wasn't. Maybe she was just a pretty face with a sweet voice, who comforted me when I needed it.

Anyway, that's what's been on my mind.

 No.963378

>>963372
Right. Sounds like it could've ended worse...

 No.963379

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>>963372
Mars will do!

 No.963380

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I'm thinking about... stuff. And.... things.

I tend to be introspective as well, but generally there's not much to talk about outwardly with people. And recently I've been trying to do it less because it usually makes me feel bad and I already feel pretty bad lately and don't want to feel worse.

So I've mostly been thinking about games and writing and characters and stuff that doesn't really focus mainly on myself.

 No.963381

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>>963380
doesn't talking with at least one person help you to form more complete thoughts, and stretch them out to be analyzed and rationalized so that you can evaluate them, and discover what your goals and ideals truly are?

 No.963382

Hey Star

 No.963383

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>>963381
Not really. I struggle with putting what I'm thinking and feeling into words, and when I can't do it correctly, I get stressed and it makes me feel even worse.

I'll usually talk to people if I need comfort or advice, or if there's any glaring issues, but generally when I'm just being introspective I do it alone because it's easier. It also helps me determine what problems need to be discussed with people.

 No.963384

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>>963369
Stressful...

 No.963385

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>>963376
Life has incredible ways of surprising you it seems, i gotta say i would feel extremely blessed to have a life like yours

and it seems like you and thorax have a movie worthy romance <3 and i hope that whoever you are in 2029 are even happier!

>>963377
i'm sorry that you broke up, but it seems like it was for the best. and the fact that you recognized that your needs weren't being met is a healthy realization to change your life

i hope that you use this new freedom in your life to further find yourself. and that any future relationships are built on mutual love and giving <3

>>963378
it could have, and while i certainly have strong criticisms for his views and beliefs, he is still the nicest and most understanding person i have ever really known. so i believe him when he apoligizes to me

>>963379
mars would be fun! although i certainly hope not to pull a matt daemon and get stuck there for a long time!

>>963380
val!

>hugs and kisses <3

well, i'm not you nor do i know your thoughts and feelings outside what you have always expressed with me. you have every right and freedom to keep your thoughts to yourself and i support it! at the same time, i would gladly lend you an ear and comfort if you are in need of somebody to listen. you are precious to me <3

>>963382
hey manley!

>hugs and kajis <3

wazzup dude?

>>963383
this makes sense, i tend to do the same

>>963384
stressful is an apt word for it. i value individuality to a great degree and have learned to thrive with it. but at the same time, i just wish i could have that sort of comfort of being with people whom i feel i can connect with completely.

it's rather lonely :((

 No.963386

>>963385
not much, how are you?

 No.963387

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>>963369
that's rough. I admit it's an issue I struggle with myself, but from the other end.

I'm a left leaning libertarian, who is also Christian (let your right wing christian populace wrap their brains around that)
and I love my friends dearly, even those who are LGBTQ. I laugh as I type the word "even" as though I'm implying they are somehow separate, or less deserving of love somehow. Everyone deserves to be loved. And I love everyone. We are all beautiful and unique. I've considered marriage with a girl who got a sex change, and my parents don't approve but I reminded them that it's my choice, and that God has pushed me toward her.

on the subject of going to hell, I don't believe anyone who wishes to be with God will go there. But if you don't want to be where God is, the other place is where you go. And that puts an interesting spin on it, I think. because it calls into play the reasons going to hell might bother you. Is it that you feel rejected, like you're not good enough to go to heaven? That line of thinking would imply you believe in a heaven and hell, and believe in God, and that calls into question why you don't want to be with God.
Or is it the simple implication that your friend sees your choices as inferior, and that you would go to hell if there was one, in their eyes? That thought is truly heartbreaking, because it covers a deeper rejection, on a more idealogical level. If that's the case, I truly feel for you.

I am not gay, and I know that the bible condemns homosexuality. But I believe that if you love Jesus, and follow his commands, he will reward you in heaven. I believe he will allow me to have my female body when I get to heaven, if there even is a concept of male and female when we get there.

Whatever you do, I hope you are happy, and that you do not go to hell. No one is ever gone until they are gone, after all.

I don't know if that helps at all, but I wanted to share.


>>963383
alright then. feel free to introspect privately. I hope you have a decent meditation environment for that, but I imagine that whatever environment you have helps, since you say it works better for you alone.

any interesting thoughts you want to share? or would that also be too stressful?

 No.963388

>>963385
mmh, yeah, now that I know better, I stand a better shot of not getting hurt so badly.

 No.963389

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>>963385
>hugs and kisses <3

Thanks, Star, I appreciate it.

>>963387
I don't meditate.

I currently have nothing to share. Like I said in my first post, I haven't been thinking about anything really related to myself. Just games and writing and characters and whatnot.

 No.963390

>>963389
what sort of characters?

 No.963391

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>>963390
Just recently been working on making a female ghost character because I've been playing the Visual Novel Heart of the Woods recently.

 No.963392

>>963385
That's good but it would frustrate me too. Anyway I need to go.

 No.963394

>>963385
Very lonely I'd think

 No.963395

Moving on and fading.

 No.963396

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I gotta head out for a bit, i'll be back later!

>>963386
i'm okay, not fantastic, but not bad either

>>963387
a left leaning christian? now i've seen everything! i kid of course, cause Moony is a left leaning christian as well

and i think my friend is of a similar mind to you in those ways. unlike many of the other christians i know, he doesn't see homosexuality as being that bad, and while a sin, certainly far from the worst, and that people that choose to go to god will receive his blessing and all that.

i know my friend doesn't view me as a bad person by any means, and it is simply because that part of me is technically a sin that he says that.

I'm not christian at all though, so i don't believe in that at all. my problem is just that his default faith and philosophy seems to necessitate that my logical conclusion is hell, and he hates that but at the same time abides by it because of his faith.

It's difficult for me to just accept that, especially since i see that very basis to be one that can be harmful to others. but at the same time i know faith is not something i can change him on.

and as for you. there are many many gene expressions that are beyond the XX/XY types, and multiple conditions and biological states that show that gender and biosex are not binary or always consistent. who you are and who you express yourself as is valid and wonderful!

and thanks for chatting with me.


>>963388
you either succeed or you learn, the only failure is that which you don't gain anything from

>>963389
of course! you are a lovely and wonderful person and i want nothing but your happiness ^^

>>963392
later!

>hugs and kajis <3

thanks for chatting with me!

>>963394
yeah, but it certainly is far from the worst ways to live :PP

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>>963396
true true

thank you for chatting as well.

 No.963398

>>963396
Sorry to hear you're not fantastic. What are you up to? I've been working on the software for my arcade again. My friend is gonna help me build it soon, but I have ot get all the games running. Building the cabinet is turning out to be the easiest part!

 No.963399

>>963398
you're building an arcade? like, an in-home game room?

 No.963400

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>>963396
You are too! I'm glad to know you. *patrick voice* i love you

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>>963399
Well, yes, but no. I'm building one machine. It's a smaller than a normal arcade machine from back in the day, around 4 feet tall, 3/4ths the size. It's inspired by the small arcades they sell in wal-mart (in the picture), but with my own design to be a little wider. It will have an old PC inside, so it can play a lot more games.

 No.963403

>>963402
that's pretty cool. I didn't know you were so crafty

 No.963404

>>963403
i'm not. But my friend does a lot of woodworking, so he's gonna help me build the cabinet part. I'm working on the electronics part. The hardesst part is getting the games running.

 No.963406

>>963404
oh, okay. woodwork can be a lot of fun if you have an inkling or two, I'm not much of an electronics nerd myself. I know what a resistor and a capacitor look like, but that's about it.

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People still here?

 No.963410

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>>963408
yep.

not for much longer though. I feel drowsiness finally settling in

 No.963411

>>963406
No resistors and capacitors in this project. Although I did have to deal with that a little bit when I modded my gameboy.

But for this, it's just modifying an old computer to run emulators. The buttons wire into a small device that allows me to plug them into the computer like any other USB controller. It's fairly simple. The issue is getting the software to run. Not only do I have to find the game files, but I also have to get the programs that run them (called "emulators") working. Then I have to install a program called the "front end" that allows you to launch the games from a graphical interface using the joystick. So far I haven't run into any problems. I need to see if the computer's hardware is powerful enough to run a playstation 2 emulator too. Since I rarely bother emulating games rather than collecting them.

 No.963413

>>963411
ah, sounds like you've got it figured out then. good luck. I should get to sleep

 No.963414

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>>963396
One I know.

 No.963415

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>>963410
>>963411
>>963414
How are you all doing?

Anybody do anything interesting in their work or at some place lately?

 No.963416

>>963413
I take it you're never going to apologize for the things you said...

Have a good night.

 No.963424

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sorry about that, my friends car stalled out and need a ride home, but i'm back, at least for a little bit!

>>963397
>hugs and kajis <3

>>963398
i just got back from driving a friend home, but now i'm back!

ooh that's awesome! your arcade is coming so close to fruition!

>>963400
i love you too, patrick <3

>>963408
ahoi hoi!

>hugs and kajis <3

i'll probably head off soon, but i can at least say hi :PP

>>963414
yup yup!

>hugs and kajis <3

 No.963426

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>>963416
I will not apologize for detailing to you the reasons why we could not settle our differences. And until those changes are made, I no longer have the emotional capacity to deal with the person they make up. I do enjoy talking to you, when you choose to be reasonable, but I cannot any longer be any more than a fair weather friend. I am sorry that it came to that, but it came to that. I wish you well

I guess sleep didn't want me. I am back.

>>963424
you have returned

 No.963427

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>>963426
sorry, my friend was stranded, so i helped him to get home ://

 No.963428

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>>963424
Hey!

Well, even if you're leaving soon, I'm glad to spend some time with you! You're adorable!

*hugs tightly*

 No.963430

>>963427
never apologize for being a good friend. I am glad you were able to help

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>>963428
aww thank you! you're adorable!!!

>huuuuugs <3

>>963431
>>963430
thank you :)) yeah, i would hate for him to have to figure out how to get back home while his car is stalled out

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>>963433
What plans have you for the rest of the week, Star?

 No.963435

>>963426
That isn't what I'm angry about.

I'm fine with the fact that you and I are not friends anymore, and I agree that it was not working out between us. What I'm angry about and what I want you to eventually appologize for were the accusations and insults you threw at me at the time. Saying you didn't want to be friends anymore does not also mean you had to call me "insane" and a "child" or accuse me of "manipulating" you. Those things were hurtful and untrue. We could have ended things amicably. You chose to say the things you did despite that.

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>>963424
>>963415
Standard business.

 No.963437

>>963424
I hope so! I just hope I don't run out of money before it's complete!

 No.963438

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lol, turns out the wi-fi range extender I bought for ¥1,100 in Okinawa does actually work, I just haven't been connecting to it at all. Just updated the network and now I have decent signal again.

 No.963439

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 No.963440

>>963435
They were true, whether or not you choose to realize it. You hurt me, and you had become a person I could barely recognize as human. You have returned to your usual self since we've been apart, so perhaps I was toxic to you as well, but I will not take back what I said, for it was very true at the time. If you can acknowledge this, I will unblock you, but do recall why I did it; I begged you to see reason, and you spat in my face

 No.963441

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>>963434
well at the moment, i just have work on thursday and saturday, but i'm working on some projects as well.

then on saturday, there is a pride parade near me that i want to go to! so i'm gonna go to that!

what about you?

>>963436
and then you will buy a bachi ball court!

>>963437
it sounds like you are so close! how much more money do you need to spend?

>>963438
oh nice!

>>963439
oh my god! it's like they are inside my head! AAAAAAAH! oh my gosh!

>hugs and kisses <3

also this song is fantastic! that monitor part was brilliant!

i once saw this commercial that was insane, but then learned that they were a part of it

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t0LSkX46dS4

 No.963442

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>>963441
Rhett and Link are the best! I watch their show all the time and I'm even a part of their "secret society".

They were also behind the "Nope! Chuck Testa!" meme from a while back.

 No.963443

>>963440
I have no interest in you unblocking me. I have no interest in speaking to you outside of this website anymore. We are no longer friends, and our friendship was never, ever viable. I only stuck with it as long as I did because I cared about you. And because I thought you cared about me. But someone who cares about someone else would not say those things to them. Nor would they refuse to appologize for saying them.

These aren't static things. You don't get to say someone WAS "insane" or a "child" or "manipulating" you. Those are terrible accusations you don't get to just take back because you feel better now. Nor is calling someone inhuman. That's just such an awful thing to say to someone. If that's the way you feel, then I don't feel comfortable being "not friends" with you. If you're going to treat me like I'm insane, like i'm a child, like I'm a manipulator like I'm not human, then you and I are enemies. Pure and simple. Until you apologize, do not speak to me. Do not address me, and do not act like we are not enemies. I will accept your appology when you are ready to give it.

 No.963444

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>>963441
I get pretty terrible signal in my room, because it's the farthest point in the house from the router, and I'm pretty sure it's right on the edge of the router's range. So I was scanning the local networks to see if anything was open with better signal and I see "TB Range Extender" and I have to just... stare for a few moments before facepalming and clicking on it. I bought it in japan thinking it was a router and never really had a use for it until recently, but now it helps our local network actually get decent speeds even as far as I am from the router. Definitely glad I bought it.

 No.963445

>>963441
I dunno! Hopefully less than I have! We'll have to see how much the materials cost.

 No.963446

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>>963441
What kind of projects, oh?

And being at the parade sounds like it'll be a ton of fun! Have any local friends that are confirmed will join you? And how long do you think it'll last during the day?

I'd like to go to a public pride event... haven't gone to one in years. I did go to an LGBT support group meeting on Monday that was super helpful. It lasted several hours and we talked about a wide range of issues.

Not much planned for the rest of the week for me other than errands, particularly a therapist appointment meeting on Thursday. Huh. Gosh, I just really wish I could go to your parade too.

>*would hug you to where it became super awkward and we'd both feel out of breath*

 No.963447

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>>963443
this here is exactly why we fell out. I used past tense for a reason, and you still act like I've used present tense.

 No.963448

>>963447
I'm saying that you can't just say those things in the past tense. it's like saying someone "used to be a child molester".

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 No.963450

>>963448
comparing a detail of someone's past to a dynamic state of being is a poor logical argument. you speak as though you believe people can't change.

 No.963451

>>963450
People can't stop being "insane". People can stop bad behavior, but "insane" is an intrinsic thing.

 No.963452

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alright, i am heading to bed! goodnight everyone!

>>963447
>>963448
can you guys argue somewhere else please?

>>963442
oh dang! you are like the ultimate Rhett and Link fan! i dig it, cause they are awesome!

oh really? i didn't know that!that makes infinite more sense now!

>hugs and kisses <3

goodnight val! sweet dreams <3

>>963444
oh yeah! i'd be happy to have that in your shoes too!

>hugs and kajis <3

goodnight!

>>963445
well i want to see this thing up and running, so don't stop now!

>hugs and kajis <3

goodnight!

>>963446
a writing project and an animation project!

i'm just going by myself, as i'm the only one in my group that would be interested -_-

i would LOVE to have something like that in my life!

one day you will get to another one and it will be awesome!

>hugs and kajis <3

thanks for hanging out with me! nighty night!

>>963449
>hugs and kajis <3

goodnight wheat!

 No.963453

>>963452
I'll show you pictures when it's done. Goodnight

 No.963454

>>963451
we should leave that there, then, and agree to disagree. Talking further might stress us both needlessly. Looks like star has noticed as well.

I'm glad your arcade is going well

>>963452
I apologize. I had not meant to muddy the thread.

yeah, I'm quite glad with it.

 No.963455

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>>963452
Sleep well!

 No.963456

>>963454
I really wish you and I could come to terms on this. Seeyah later.

 No.963458

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I don't know how to live a good life where I see myself as someone worthwhile. Human beings are far, far too complicated. There are too many variables, too many different beliefs, ideas, and combinations of experiences. The idea of being satisfied with myself as a person given all of the individuals -essentially universes unto themselves- who approve or disprove of me, it seems bizarre.

And should anyone's thoughts matter on anyone else, to begin with? We're all cut from the same flawed cloth. The pieces of cloth are never completely identical, but all these variations are just a result of faulty material and poor craftsmanship.

 No.963459

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Also, I deeply hate when individuals try to tell me I can't feel a certain way. I know how I feel. I'm me. Screw off.

 No.963460

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The ratio between my income, how much houses/land costs, and how much I want to be putting away for retirement. Never fun but always on my mind

 No.963475

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Same as always. Incredibly bored.

 No.963478

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Why do people want me to be a shoemaker and not a real chef?

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 No.963482

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>>963479
A shoemaker is an insult to people that can't really cook and just use frozen crap.

The place I work at refuses to acknowledge that their product is crap and wants to fight me on trying to get in better stuff.
That and the clients just want frozen tenddies so I will most likely leave soon.

 No.963484

>>963482
Oh. I guess we'd call that a fitter and turner.

 No.963489

>>963482
Yeah I would definitely quit. Always work in a place that recognizes value.

 No.963508

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Introspection.

 No.963536

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I've been doing a lot of thinking.
It happens, I go to therapy. It makes me think quite a bit.

I'm in a state of stagnation in my life. My love life. My enjoyment. My job. It's all slowing to a halt if it hasn't already.

I'm finding a lot of patterns in life where I end up as the "best of the worst"
I've been in a relationship position where I was the "backup boyfriend" until a better alternative arrives.
I'm acutely aware of my position in my current work place having absolutely no growth. I'm the Acting Lead, but, I'll never be the Lead. That's not a projection, I was told this. My boss only stopped looking for a replacement when I had been working for him for a year. Still treated as the Acting Lead.

I feel replaceable. Worthless.

It's hard to shake the feeling, the thought. There's just too much proof that says that I don't matter.

 No.963537

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The usual.
I don't know where I'm headed and what i want from life.
I've gotten more free time in my hands than the last months and can't shake the feeling that I'm wasting too much of it.
And how the fuck do I get women to the point where they consider accepting my seed?
Underachiever syndrom?

New chat thingies, moderate exercise, lyricism, and anime cartoons give me joy.
And dank memes.

 No.963539

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>>963482
>Frozen

they need to wake up.

If I wanted frozen food, I'd go to a fast food joint or cook the scarps in my freezer.

All this battling and they still refuse to realize they're losing the war.

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 No.963541

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I'm kind of thinking learning how to paint 40k miniatures would be fun.

I don't have anyone to actually play the game with, but it would be nice to just... have.

 No.963583

>>963354
>Merry Christmas everyone!
Are you doing your part to make the Yuletide gay?

 No.963585

>>963387
>and I know that the bible condemns homosexuality.
Isn't that the same part of the Bible that condemns eating pork and wearing polyester/cotton blend t-shirts?  The part that Jesus said we don't need to worry about anymore?

 No.963586

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>>963583
>sexy furry boy
There you go, I don’t think you can get any gayer. (In both senses of the word.

 No.963589

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>>963585
Well, technically the part of the Bible that really condemns homosexuality is Sodom and Gomorrah where one of the reasons they were destroyed was "men lying with other men" or something like that.

But what most people don't understand is that the Bible doesn't condemn Homosexuality any more than it condemns Heterosexual people having sex for reasons aside from procreation.

The sin isn't that you're having sex with a man, the sin is that you're having sex with someone who can't give birth to a child.

Having sex for purposes other than procreation is pleasure-seeking, and pleasure-seeking itself is a sin.

So if you know heterosexual people who have sex for any other reason than to produce children, you know a couple of sinners.

It's personal bias against something that is seen as especially unnatural that has caused this to be conflated with "if you are gay, you are a sinner" rather than "if you have sex, you are a sinner".

But everyone is a sinner, according to the Bible, regardless of if they go out of their way to commit sins. There's no reason to hold gay people to higher standard than anyone else, it's just plain old bigotry, with no actual section in the Bible condemning it outright. The Bible says "men laying with other men" is a sin not ""being attracted to the same sex" is a sin. It's pretty clear the Bible just condemns butt sex in general. Can't get pregnant from that.


It's not just gay men, either, it talks about lesbians too, so there's no loophole there, unfortunately.

(The thing that doesn't make sense at all in terms of the Bible is how being trans is a bad thing. Nothing in the Bible says anything close to that.)

 No.963592

>>963590
>>963591
She's probably just embarrassed, take her to the doctor.

Also make it really clear that whatever she talks about with the doctor is private if she wants it to be, and the doctor isn't allowed to tell anyone else about anything they talk about.

It's probably nothing serious, but remembering my own first time, I didn't want to talk with anyone about anything and my grandma just made me a doctor's appointment and made me go to it, and the doctor set me straight and made me feel good about it being a private conversation.

If your just asking for my opinion-stop bringing it up and just make her an appointment as soon as you can and let her go in by herself. Just watch for if she starts actually getting sick like a fever or anything not normal.

 No.963599

>>963595
I had friends in school who started at nine years old, so don't be too shocked if she seems too young but does.

Just grab some pads from a store and have them ready if she starts in the middle of the night, and take her to the doctor the next day or when you can.

The biggest thing is that YOU stay calm and if she starts to feel out, or makes a mess on her clothes or in the bed, treat it like it isn't a big deal and can be cleaned up easily.

The reason I tried to hide it was because I was deeply embarrassed and scared (no one told me anything about what a period was until I started), and then my grandma kind of panicked, which made me panic.

You need to stay calm. And not just for her, but for yourself too so you can recognize what is normal and what isn't, and what can wait over night and what might require a doctor's visit immediately.

 No.963604

>>963600
Then you should probably get her into the doctor before it happens, because the doctor will tell her what to expect and what to do, and a lot of stuff that just...you know, parents can't think of everything, and that's ok.

 No.963608

>>963604
>>963604
> the doctor will tell her what to expect and what to do, and a lot of stuff that just...you know, parents can't think of everything, and that's ok.
Seems that info should be available on the web somewhere.

 No.963613

>>963607
>>963608
I'm not an expert, but in my opinion it would be better if a trained doctor was providing the information.

 No.963630

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>>963589
I think the trans thing is more an interpretation of one's body as a temple to God. It's not something I put much stock in myself. Maybe it's from being raised Catholic or maybe not. At least with the sect I was raised with, much more emphasis was put on the mind.

 No.963640

>>963536
Know the feeling.

 No.963642

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Today in the the show of "Working above your pay grade" I am having to figure out how to make a cooking class for the members of the course with one oven.

I feel like I should be getting paid a bit more.

 No.963643

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 No.963644

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>>963643
I did force them to buy me a chef's coat for an event they want to do this weekend.

Right now I am just going over some dishes I want to do and try to work on my DnD campaign.

 No.963645

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>>963642

Just start stealing supplies, they won't notice.

 No.963646

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>>963645
But I need the supplies for not class things.

It is all under the same business. Just for whatever reason, the manager in charge of the renovation has only ordered one oven and range when she said we would be getting two.

It would not be an issue if she was also going to order a standing oven, but she just went with a standard range and oven.

I assume that means she wants me to just focus on doing things in a hot plate and doing demos rather than having them actually do something.

That and apparently some of the owners want to rent me out as a private chef for their personal events.

I really should be getting paid more.

 No.963647

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>>963644
You have to live within your environment, of course, but an aspect of professionalism is defending your professional integrity.

 No.963648

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>>963647
I'm getting better at not being a pushover.

I refuse to be a shoemaker and have made it known that if they try to continue the current menu after the renovations are complete then I will be leaving.

 No.963651

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My current thought:
What if I made a Golden Axe movie? What would the story be and who will I cast?
So far... Dwayne Johnson as Death=Adder. Although his helmet will cover his face.

Also thinking... what if Sega got DoubleFine to reboot Golden Axe and use assets and model-quality from Brütal Legend?

 No.963653

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>>963651

I love old 80s style fantasy posters.  I'd watch that movie.

 No.963657

>>963653
If I were to make a Golden Axe movie, I would on-purpose make the movie footage look as aged and quality as the '80s Conan movies.

I would still use modern computer special effects for magic and such, just make it feel aged. For it to be like a beautiful blend of Conan the Barbarian and Lord of the Rings.

I already have a rough script in mind and a mental image of how I want the eponymous golden axe to look like.

 No.963658

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>>963640
It's hard to fight the negative thoughts when the negative thoughts are based on truths.

 No.963659

>>963658
You can counter negative truth with positive lies, or "hope" as it's more commonly known as.

 No.963664

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So last night Thorax decided to try using the THC edibles to treat the soreness in his knees from the last time he went to the rock climbing gym thing. He ended up sleeping for like, 12 hours.

Anyway, while he was asleep I decided to try to get stoned again on a lower dose than I took on Saturday. Had a nice time, especially when I took a shower at 2am. A really interesting experience.

Woke up today still buzzed from last night and, surprisingly filled with a strong sense of motivation to clean everything.

So that's led to to be instropective and self-concious about how my lack of motivation on some days seems to be more a symptom of neuroticism than just pure lack of energy. Cause I feel tired today (and am taking a break to cool off right now), yet I still feel motivated.

 No.963681

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i really feel like a burden to the few people i interact with outside of work. people i considered friends and even family members don't seem to care at all that i don't speak to them anymore. whether or not this is true doesn't really matter to me, it's just how i'm perceiving it that affects how i feel, and that just makes me want to pull back and isolate myself from more people

i'll never be cute, i'm too tall, i'll never be comfortable being in my own body, and i cry a lot
i don't really have friends or anybody to talk to outside of my gf, and i don't get to spend any time with her at all outside of the weekends due to work

Being alone constantly and not having anybody to talk to gets me really depressed

Being depressed makes me not be able to focus on anything and on the rare occasion i can focus on something i just..am not good at doing whatever it is i'm trying to do

There is 0 opportunity for advancement in my job, and they recently capped raises so i can have the opportunity for a 51 cent raise once a year

 No.963691

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Opening a twitter account and find a place where I can interact and exchange social experience also speak freely and with joy the topics I love.

 No.963696

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Also I was thinking lately.

If pastry chefs murders the cool whiped cream pokemon Alcremie or they just wait for Alcremie defecates cream so they can use that cream in their recipes?

 No.963697

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>>963691
tell me your twitter so I can follow you

 No.963698

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>>963697
I'm still thinking if I open a twitter account or not.
But sure I will tell you.

 No.963699

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i have been so tired. this week has been so hard! i cannot believe it is thursday already... i cannot wait to go to sleep.

 No.963700

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>>963699
Well go to sleep, no one is stopping you

 No.963701

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>>963699

Go to bed.

 No.963702

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>>963699
Goodnight, Moony!

 No.963716

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hello everyone!

here's my thought for tonight

i swear my attraction to women is similar to that of a lesbian. i mean, if i spell out what i like about them, it shouldn't sound too much different than most guys. but more often than not, i guess i just feel my attraction is inherently more feminine than not to them.

 No.963719

>>963716
Feminine?

 No.963722

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>>963719
hey wheat!

>hugs and kajis <3

i don't know how to properly explain it. but i feel like the appeal for women is a bit of a more mise en scene not. I am not against good looks, breasts, or butt, i like those fine. but there is something more to their personality that i want to focus on, what does their attire, the way they hold themselves, and what makes them happy make me feel about them? and i know that really comes off as a "i like girls for their personality" which is stereotypical of "nice guys" who are really creeps. but i honestly want to know who they are above all else.

and when i am talking with other guys, and the topic of women comes up, it usually is a sort of focus on nice ass, boobs, face, ect. and i get sort of angry or fed up with it, because all i'm thinking is what is she like in a party? by herself? does she prefer to be like a swarthy pirate lass? a kick ass biker girl? maybe a sweet girl with a hardline personality underneath. like it's all about wondering who they are, instead of just whether or not they have nice cans or whatever.

in a way, I want whoever the girl is to want me to look at her, before i want to look at her, ya know? i want o see her mind and character, and let that guide us instead of just me being into her butt and persue that first.

it's weird, i feel like i'd be happier with a text conversation that leads to love, than with sending pics.

and i know other guys would say that this seems similar to them, and thus is still kinda like a guy thing. but i dunno, it feels like it's more feminine expression for me

it's confusing

 No.963725

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>>963722
Makes sense. The aspects of romance you're more drawn to are traditionally considered more feminine.

 No.963727

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>>963722
>and i know other guys would say that this seems similar to them,

Well there's at least two camps of guys here, the ones who are constantly talking about physical dimensions and the type who isn't as interested.

 No.963728

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>>963725
yeah, exactly! my love style is far more feminine than not. and all my types of romance are more feminine, and as a guy it has always been harder for me to really be in those situations, ya know?

>>963727
hey mondo!

>hugs and kajis <3

i mean, i enjoy the physical dimensions all well and good, and i admit to enjoying pornography

but i have always felt that the connection, personality, and genuine sense of person is far more important to me.

 No.963730

>>963728
And you seem to enjoy lesbian pairings a lot

 No.963731

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>>963728
>my love style is far more feminine than not

They have like...a quiz for that, don't they?  Love styles?

 No.963732

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>>963730
you aren't wrong!

i have many lesbian ships! their energy just is so perfect <3

>>963731
huh! never taken any that were about that sort of thing, although i don't doubt their existence!

do you know any good ones?

 No.963733

>>963732

Well there's a really specific good one, I'll try searching for it.

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 No.963735

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>>963733
>>963734
huh? okay! ill give it a shot :))

 No.963738

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>>963735
>>963734
alrighty! here's my score!

My number one love language is "Words of Affirmation"

Words of Affirmation
Actions don’t always speak louder than words. If this is your love language, unsolicited compliments mean the world to you. Hearing the words, “I love you,” are important— hearing the reasons behind that love sends your spirits skyward. Insults can leave you shattered and are not easily forgotten. You thrive on hearing kind and encouraging words that build you up.


yeah, this is me to a T. i just feel so much happier when people say nice things to me, and i want them to feel the same too <3

 No.963743

>>963738

I suppose I should take it, too, just a moment.

 No.963745

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>>963738
>>963743

Your Scores
11        Quality Time
8        Acts of Service
5        Words of Affirmation
4        Receiving Gifts
2        Physical Touch


There we go!  I'd call it accurate, but it's pratically just choosing your scores, so of course it would be accurate.

 No.963747

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>>963745
ahh, cool cool!

so you are one for quality time and acts of service eh? i can certainly understand that as appealing. it's interesting how our scores are very much on opposite ends :))

 No.963750

A lot, stress about rotting house that start g to self decade, stress bout not getting anywhere in life.

Feeling blue for been single on this 30 years on the globe, as well I'm almost fed up with people in general to the point being people shy/Inteovert.

In short = much on the Mind as usual

 No.963752

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i have to head to bed now! nighty night y'all!

>>963750
>hugs and kajis <3

you deserve love, happiness, and to be free from the stress that life is putting on you. one day you will be in a far better situation, and life will be great

and love and friendship will find it's way to warm your world! you are loved, and you will know love <3

goodnight! and may your day be wonderful <3

 No.963754

>>963752
*tucks in bed*
Thank chu. <3
Goodnight

 No.963807

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This is a good thread <3

 No.964027

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>>963807
you're a good thread, beemo <3

 No.964037

I think I am socially tired.

 No.964046

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>>964037
hey wheat!

>hugs and kajis <3

do you feel burnt out on interacting with people?

 No.964047

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>>964037

Then take a social break!

 No.964050

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>>964046
Hey, Star, how are your creative projects going?

 No.964053

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>>964050
hey psuedo!

>hugs and kajis <3

doing fine! i am officially over halfway done with my first draft (theoretically) but i can definitely see that i will need revisions and edits before it's ready for reading when tis all said and done

how about you?

 No.964056

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>>964053
I just finished updating this story that I hadn't worked on since 2017! Did a whole new chapter! It feels good!

I'm also looking at more furry (and especially Zootopian) stuff as usual... what are you doing at the moment?

 No.964061

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>>964056
oh snap! you just necromanced your story! dark sorceror!!!

that's awesome tho! i am happy you continued your work!

and zootopian stuff is always good to find! how is the search goin?

i just got done with a writing session myself, and am just chatting with friends and watching youtube vids :))

 No.964067

>>964046
"Tired" might be the wrong word.

 No.964069

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>>964061
Yeah, and I've got this separate thing (something that I could actually link in these threads here) that I'll be uploading tomorrow as well.

There's so much out there about Zootopia! Furries are prolific content generators, aren't they? Heh!

 No.964078

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>>964067
oh? then what would be the right word?

>>964069
oooh that's neat! i'm happy you are being so prolific with your work, saucy and not saucy :33

and the fact that if one learns how to draw furry smut, they could secure a profitable career, is any indication, i can indeed say they are very prolific generators!

 No.964086

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>>964078
It's no surprise. So many of these characters are just truly irresistible.

 No.964091

>>964078
nothing

goodnight

 No.964094

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>>964086
you said it best brother :PP

>>964091
oh okay ://

>hugs and kajis <3

goodnight wheat!

 No.964099

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Oh!  What I'm thinking about is a question I haven't answered yet.  It's another novel/story idea.  This one is less copyright infringing than the 101 Dalmations thing.

It hasn't quite coalesced, but I'm feeling some mystery/supernatural stuff, and I'm imagining a lot of chatroom discussion sort things.  Like the characters aren't local, they're all doing their own thing over a distance trying to figure out this mystery.

I haven't figured out what the mystery is, I'm very not far along on this idea.  Perhaps something with a pantheon of gods, though.

 No.964105

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>>964099
oooh that sounds interesting! especially since everyone talks via group chats and stuff like that nowadays, that would be fertile ground!

would it be something like Unfriended?

 No.964116

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>>964105

I dunno, I'm not sure what that is.  My friend just published a book (that I haven't read yet because I keep forgetting to grab a copy of the book) that I think had some similar concepts in that it involved a lot of text messages?  Oddly enough I can't seem to remember what the plot of the book was, but I was probably a little influenced by that.

 No.964120

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>>964116
Unfriended is a horror movie about these group of teens that are stuck in a group call with eachother on Skype, and they are haunted and killed by the vengeful spirit of a girl that they bullied into suicide

doesn't sound like your thing though, yours sounds like it has more mythology and lore behind it, which is a fascinating angle <3

 No.964123

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>>964120

That does sound kinda cool, but yeah I'm not really going for horror or vengeful ghosts.

 No.964125

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>>964123
you gotta let me know more about it as it develops! i want to hear more! it sounds like fun, in a spoopy supernatural sorta way!

>hugs and kajis <3

i'm gonna dissappear for a bit, so cya later mondo!

 No.964127


 No.964158

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I keep feeling like somethings going to happen, and I hate that. I can't tell if it's good or bad, only that something is going to happen.

I've gotten that feeling before and it's never been good, so dont know why it would change now, but aaah I hate it. I hate it so much.

 No.964173

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>>964158

Maybe the feeling is making you look for things, when you normally wouldn't be?

 No.964197

>>964158
To be fair, something is always happening

 No.964200

>>963722
I know what you mean.
Does it really make me have high standards when I want someone who I can be comfortable with personality-wise just as much as look at her and think damn.

 No.964348

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Oh, Ponyville.

How you're always able to grab me and drag me down to the unhealthy depths of mood.

The few contacts I have with others are always indicative of a massively failed social experiment on my part.

 No.964349

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>>964348
But that's just how i want you to feel so i feel cool and stuff.

You can't let me win like that.

 No.964355

>>964349
I wonder at times how much the same sentiment rushes through our minds when we get like this.

I try to be humble and meek and not put up the dramatic announcements, I suppose.
Barring the occasional rant here, I never went so far to give Ponychan my dramatic exit, but the feeling was all there.
Because I expect that in the end, I'll just give in again.

Admittedly, Ponyville gave me a place to hold on to.

I wonder, though, how far we're into the whole autism thing and how it impacts the way we experience the world and the interactions.

 No.964359

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>>964355
People are at each other's throats constantly over things that absolutely evade me. It's enough to make me feel like the autistic one.

In general I handle myself here the exact same way I handle everything in real life.

 No.964360

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I have a creative writing piece to share: https://archiveofourown.org/works/19783354

It's written for a friend and his OC (pictured).

 No.964370

>>964158
Are you a prophet?

 No.964478

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Check out what came in the mail today!

She is perfect! Merry Christmas!

 No.964479

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They were even selling these at Walmart! Ya know your boy had to pick them up ;33

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 No.964482

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>>964480
I know right? There was even a postcard on the back :))

>Hugs and kajis <3

Merry Christmas!

 No.964483

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>>964482
djaaw. merry x mas dearie

 No.964484

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>>964483
merry christmas!

what are you up to this weekend?

 No.964485

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>>964484
yesterday was NOT fun so im still in the aftershake from that panic angst...  shall see if i can fix and start the boat today. but all joy is like gone..
chu?

 No.964486

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>>964485
>>964485
oh no :(( what happened?

>extra hugs and cuddles <3

 No.964487

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>>964486
heavy rain and thunder, so it started leak through the kitchen roof inside

 No.964488

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>>964487
oh dear, that sounds no good :((

i hope it didn't do too much damage!

 No.964489

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>>964488
wet spot on the floor but moped it away.
the biggest damage is already done on the house.

not to say the damage to my mental health and stress

 No.964490

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>>964489
it does sound like it did a blow to your mental state of mind

what is it about the leaking roof that dampened your mood so much?

 No.964491

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>>964490
like most neghative things nowdays.
it´s my fault for neglecting this house for far to long. since i have no skills and scared of fucking things more up with this old house.

this house needs some majorly TLCs of repairs.

i owe it my late parents and this house at least to be fixed but no skills nor no budget.
im a ashamed worthless former son that can't do a single thing right besides working overtime and stress

 No.964492

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>>964491
i think your parents would want you to be happy and free from the cares and worries that plague you, my friend. and while keeping up repairs and house maintenance is a good thing, it is not the end of the world if it isn't perfect.

and if you need help, you can ask friends, or look up online steps you can take to fix things up and make them alright again

and ultimately, your health and happiness will be that which honors your parents more

you are a good son, and a wonderful friend <3

 No.964493

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>>964492
guess so.
i dun care about perfection. im the last guy to deserve such efforts, i mean look at my looks and cars. i want a safe house to live in, before it molds itself inside out crushing me when it collapse ( not a bad way to go if i might say so )

im scared of asking, im like AJ to stubborn. not  a pride thing, im just i unno. shy. hard to explain.

it´s nit a small cottage we are talking about here.

i unno. i feel bad for forgetting how they sounded, luckily i have many pictures ( mom was a photo maniac ) so ill have that memory still.

i can debate about that last part heavily

 No.964494

>>964493
Isn't this pony from porn?

 No.964495

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>>964494
both yes and no.
there´s a main story that´s has no lewds. and another with lewds.

im like the dark sad story that has no lewds.

and for the record!"
the lewds that´s in that story line is NOTHING that floats my boat.

so dun chu get starting now!

 No.964496

>>964495
Nothing wrong with liking pony lewds.

but that's super weird. How can there be two competing storylines with the same characters?

 No.964497

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>>964496
maybe the creator know that some like lewds and some dont?
im not complaining

 No.964499

>>964497
Can't have it both ways. The people who don't like lewds are always going to have the thing they like compared to the lewds, like what just happened just now. And it's hard to take a story serious when you've seen the characters 69ing each other or something!

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>>964493
wanting a safer house to live in seems like something most people could certainly agree with, so that is not bad at all. i feel that if it was me, i would probably look at a leaky roof, and just gripe and put a bucket under it and go back to writing myself. is there something you did when you couldn't work on the roof?

i get that completly! i'm rather a stubborn individualist myself, so i see your point. but people wanna help you out, and it builds bonds as well ^^

ahhh yeah... i can see you miss your parents, and in time it's hard to remember some things. I still wonder if deleting the voice mails of my mom was the best thing to do or not... but they will always be remembered in our hearts, and while some details fade, they will always have a hold somewhere!

i can too!

>>964496
>>964495
2 seperate canons can exist!

 No.964501

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>>964500
How weird it must be to know that the characters in this supposedly serious story are getting fucked in the ass on another part of the same website!

 No.964502

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>>964499
live and let live?
i happily follow thw SFW story best i can and avoids the NSFW stories? it´s that simple no?
i can acknowledged theres this other story but i just dun wanna search into that

>>964500
maybe maybe not.
i unno.

perhaps.-

well if you where on good bounds with the parents i would say you would have saved one. if not.... then it´s better remembering the good image you had of them.

 No.964503

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>>964501
but isn't that life to an extent?

the seriousness of life and the sexually overt still exist in life as part of one continual narrative that is life. and people in time just accept it.

your parents have had probably some crazy sex, yet you have also been witness and concious observer of the interplay of the emotional depths of drama that they have had.

just because it's fictional doesn't mean that these things have to get in the way of eachother. the sexual, the serious, the hilarious, the small and the grand, all of these are part of life

>>964502
it was mostly that the passing was that morning, and i had these messages on my phone. and hearing her voice hurt worse than anything in that moment. so i deleted them because i convinced myself that i don't want to be emotionally anchored to those messages, and i wanted to break free and move on.

my mom and i had a very poor relationship, but i still loved her regardless.

 No.964504

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>>964173
Maybe. Maybe im being paranoid again; I'll keep an eye on that. It mostly went away anyway, which means I probably was just being paranoid and it was probably something that had made me nervous, but I didn't pay enough mind to, to figure out why.
>>964197
To be faaiiir

True though. It's just that the only times I've had "that feeling" or "this feeling" is when someone I knew got really sick and/or died. Tis why I do not like when I can't recognize what's making me nervous.
>>964370
Maybe?

No

 No.964505

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>>964504
hey ella!

>hugs and kajis <3

how are yoooooou?

 No.964506

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>>964503
>hugs and holds you dearly
im sorrie

 No.964507

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>>964506
>huuuugs and holds dearly <3

it's okay. i feel alright about things. i only brought it up to show that i get it

i get the feelings of wanting to honor your parents, and that there are things that make you feel like you are failing.

but you are wonderful, and you are certainly NOT failing them. The life you live is yours to choose, and like any good parents, they would want the life that brings you the most happiness and satisfaction <3

 No.964508

>>964503
>the seriousness of life and the sexually overt still exist in life

Not in MY life.

 No.964509

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>>964508
you literally wouldn't be alive without both of them ;33

 No.964510

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>>964507
good star<3
thank you dear.
maybe maybe not, im just annoyed, stressed and scared like theres no tomorrow

im almost 30. and what ive managed in life?
got drivers license and owned over 33 cars?
yea im white trash with no hope

 No.964511

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>>964348
You having a rough few days Artee?

>>964355
I honestly don't know as much about autism as I probably should, considering how many people seem to have some degree of it. Does it affect you online as much as it does offline?

 No.964512

>>964509
I guess? But it's not an active part of my life, even if it was part of how I came to be.

 No.964513

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>>964505
I'm good! Got to talk to that irl friend a bit more in depth and I feel like it was a good talk.

Just finished having a barbeque with them actually.

Food is delicious by the way, I suggest you give it a try.

 No.964514

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>>964510
good groove <3

it does sound stressful and annoying, and it must be exhausting. but you'll be okay <3

i mean, in my country, owning 33 cars would be an badge of honor :PP

and your life isn't over, your story can become greater than you can possibly imagine! but most importantly, it will get better!

there are people who have come from far darker places to become complete successes, and that is never closed for you! i know you can become everything you can be <3

>>964512
well maybe not in the moment; but you may find love and go through times of fun and levity, hardship and serious decision making, all the while you have lewd fun in the inbetween parts.


and i believe that will be in your future ^^

>>964513
that's wonderful news Ella! i'm glad it went over well

and barbacue is always fun! i could go for some!

are you gonna mail it to me? or will you attach it to an email or something?

 No.964515

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>>964514
>mail it to me

Now there's an idea. How hard is it to ship chocolates to people?

Also how are you sweety? And sorry if I suddenly drop out, im lying in bed

 No.964516

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>>964515
as long as it doesn't spoil, and you have the proper postage, it should be all good!

i'm doing pretty good myself! i finally got my Noelle Shirt, and i found Christmas pastries at Walmart, so i'm having a very happy holiday!

and tomorrow, there is a Pride Event in colorado springs. so i'm planning on attending! it is gonna be fun ^^

other than that, i am doin well overall :))

 No.964517

>>964514
I feel myself give up more and more on the idea anyone could ever like me that way every day.

 No.964518

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>>964517
possibility always exist, so long as you are always open to that possibility

i believe that wholeheartedly

 No.964520

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and the chan stopped upadting.. im sorrie!

>>964514
but ahm not a good groove...

i unno, ill guess

nah im a natural disaster im the one thats killing the earth and thus should be hanged up high

guess. thank you

 No.964521

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>>964516
That's awesome Star. May the merry bells keep ringing~
>>964517
Please don't give up. I know that's horrible coming from someone who has a relationship, but please don't.

The second you give up is the second you lose any possibility of it ever happening. You don't deserve that.

 No.964522

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>>964520
you are a loving person in a sour situation that pursues to live even when the light in his life seems to not exist in his world

in almost every story in the world, you are the protagonist that everyone would cheer for! you are by no means a natural disaster and certainly belong in this world until old age <3

you are the hero in your story, and i am rooting for you to have your happy ending <3

>>964521
thanks!

oh, one question while i have you. i'm still writing my screenplay, and i have never really done a long form project like this before; so i wanted to know when it comes to your writing, do you tend to overwrite and cut back, or do you underwrite and build up?

 No.964524

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>>964522
and still you are being beautiful poetic, never change!

im the sour... not  anti hero. but the sour guy that doesn't seen anything posetive.
sometimes i feel like cid highwind

thank you... but there are better heroes to root for

 No.964525

>>964522
Probably under write? Im not sure. I've always just wrote stories dor pleasure. I've also never done something like a screen play; Esh would probably be the one to ask about something like that.

 No.964526

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>>964524
Cid Highwind helped save the world, and without him the heroes wouldn't have been able to get around to do what they need to do

and you are a hero i want to root for! Your story is one that i am invested in, and i want your happiness <3

>>964525
ah so you just kinda naturally write and grow your story eh? that's wonderful! I am really on route to overwrite quite a bit, and i am already planning on where to cut/revise to whittle the page count down.

i think i did talk to esh about it, but i could always ask him about his other projects too :33

if you were to write a screenplay, what would it be about?

 No.964527

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>>964526
the world clrealy hates me..

you being far to kind

 No.964528

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>>964527
i'm part of the world, and i don't hate you at all

and i'm certain none of the other people here hate you

so the world clearly doesn't hate you ^^

 No.964529

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>>964528
thank you.. and im sorrie for being such a mess now....

 No.964530

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>>964529
it's okay to be a mess sometimes <3 life can be very messy, and we just do what we need to do, clean up when it's time to clean up, and move on <3

so right now, you are doing okay <3

 No.964531

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>>964530
but i dunno how to clean up and move. i will forever be the trashcan of ponyville
i would not say that i am doing ok at the moment.
maybe i am but i don't really feel ok

 No.964532

>>964518
it doesn't matter how open I am to the possibility, it requires someone else's input to happen.

>>964521
It's not really up to me.

 No.964533

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>>964531
well, perhaps cleaning up can start with something small

and it's okay to feel bad sometimes, honor your emotions, and just see what you need <3

 No.964534

>>964533
maybe maybe not, im unsure...
here have this random video while im gonna slink outside  do something. i unno. yet
im sorrie and thank you

 No.964535

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>>964534
of course my friend <3

>hugs and kajis <3

if you wanna talk, you know where to find  me :))

and i gotta go to bed! so goodnight :))

 No.964549

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Well, looks like I'm up this morning for no good reason... will likely try to lie down again soon.

How is everyone?

 No.964673

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>>964532
But the chance is up to you. If you give up, you close yourself off and lose any chance you might ever have.

Anyway, I watched part of that weird movie called What The Fuck Do We Know? again the other day. Kind of made me want to try something, little experiment on myself.

I started it this morning. What I did was, I marked on my calendar the days that I wrote something, or read something. And that's all it says. "I wrote something/I read something"

What I'm hoping is that, at the end of each month, I can look at that and say to myself "you did something that day" or "look how many days you did something on"

I made a promise to myself that I'm going to ignore the days on which I didn't do anything, because I've had literal years of not doing anything now. So Im not focusing on that.

So that's my experiment. I was going to ask if you wanted to do something similar with me, but instead of you doing writing, maybe yours could be a social thing. And you could make it really simple, like, "I smiled at a girl today", or, "I said hello amd held the door open today".

And I was kind of hoping we could encourage each other about it. Maybe help each other build some confidence and some motivation.
>>964526
>if you were to write a screenplay, what would it be about?

I think I would want to write a script about a man who is very depressed and often contemplates suicide, until one day he meets a few friends and a lover.

He's happy for a year or two, but eventually the depression gets back to eating him, but now he can't consider suicide out of guilt for his friends and lover. So instead what he starts to do, and it starts unconciously at first, is he starts having self destructive habits.

He begins to chainsmoke and drink on a regular basis. He never was one for a very healthy diet, but gradually he begins to make it worse by co stantly eating very unhealthy foods and not excersising as much as he could. He slowly begins to isolate himself from the world except for his tight nit group of friends.

The film would end by the friends and lover coming to realize just how badly depressed he is, and why he is doing this to himself, and they would, through a set of some very emotional confrontations and actions, (like the guy drinks too much one night and tries to drive-almost gets himself in a wreck, so his friend or partner try to co front him about it) help him to get the help that he needs and live an ok life. Not a happy one, but just calm and ok enough that he stops hating himself.

 No.964677

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>>964549
I need sleeeep

 No.964791

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>>964677
Same, honestly...

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 No.964801

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>>964673
that sounds like it would be a hard hitting dramatic piece, but it could be absolutely amazing <3

i mean, i certainly would find myself deeply invested, and would destroy me in the best way

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 No.964803

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Still... anybody doing anything fun this evening?

 No.964807

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>>964802
I finally answered your movie script question. XD
>>964803
Had a barbeque yesterday. Pork ribs and new york boneless roast.

 No.964809

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>>964807
i know!

see >>964801


hey ella <3

 No.964811

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 No.964813

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>>964811
hey wheat!

>hugs and kajis <3

hoooooooooow are yoooooooooou? merry christmas!

 No.964814

>>964813
Mhm. You too.

 No.964815

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>>964814
how are you today?

 No.964817

>>964809
Aaah! I missed it! How could I miss it?! AAAAHHH
>>964801
>hugs <3

Maybe one day I will write it. Infact, I haven't tried to write anything else but my main focus story for a long time. Maybe that could be a nice break from the other one.

 No.964818

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>>964817
that would be a wonderful idea! mix up your creative juices <3

how is the main focus story goin btw?

>hugs and kajis <3

 No.964822

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There is a fish out in the ocean right now that is gonna get turned into fish sticks.

 No.964824

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>>964807
That sounds fun!

Was there a special occasion?

>>964822
>

 No.964826

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>>964822
and i'll probably eat them with custard :DD

>hugs and kajis <3

hey lamby lamb!

 No.964830

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>>964824
So long as it is not breaded and fried

>>964826
Hello.

 No.964831

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Oh yeah! I went to my first pride fest! It was absolutely amazing!

And here is a rainbow on my face :))

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 No.964835

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>>964830
>>964833
you alright lamb?

 No.964837

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Got some new pins there too!
Hehe

 No.964840

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>>964835
I am tired but due to events I am unable to sleep.

>>964837
The one of the right would get me fired.

>>964840
Hi Wheat.

 No.964842

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>>964831
Probably was a lot of fun!

How many people were there?

And who painted that?

 No.964843

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Got to wear my new abro pride flag!

 No.964845

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>>964841
oh dear :((

i hope things are alright, is everything okay?

and if i had a normal job, i would probably be fired too :PP

>>964842
it was a booth at the Pride Fest! they just asked for a donation, and i got a wonderful rainbow <3

 No.964846

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I also got this neato rainbow Fox tail!

 No.964848

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 No.964849

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>>964845
Not a lot can be done.

I just feel like a knobhead and that makes me not want to sleep.

Yeah.
Sucks.

>>964848

 No.964850

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I also found this socialist booth, and got this little Beauvoir pin!

 No.964852

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 No.964853

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>>964849
you are not a knobhead, you are a wonderful and sweet lamb and i hate the idea of you feeling bad for any reason

>hugs and kajis <3

but i don't want to deligegitimize your feelings, so what happened?

 No.964854

File: 1563071630371.jpg (2.36 MB, 2432x4320, 76:135, IMG_20190713_201402491.jpg) ImgOps Exif Google

Not related to pride, but I also got this awesome Ralsei plush <3

 No.964856

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>>964852
Neat

No I won't use a different image.
I like this one.

>>964853
Being supportive is hard.
I feel icky for being frustrated and worse for saying it outloud.

 No.964860

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>>964856
I'm out of fuel.

 No.964861

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 No.964862

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>>964854
NEED TO HAVE TOO SO BAD

SO BAD

 No.964865

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>>964856
being supportive can be very hard, and it can be even harder to tell others your struggles and hardships. i get that, i feel that way a lot

but while it may feel icky, it's also part of the cleansing of ones own ickyness to share and get help, even just by venting <3

>>964862
https://www.fangamer.com/products/deltarune-ralsei-plush

boom!

 No.964866

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 No.964868

>>964865
Thanks

>>964866
Sorry if I made things worse.

 No.964870

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>>964868
of course <3

>hugs <3

i hope you can feel a comfort in talking with your friends <3

and you have certainly not made anything worse, there was something on your mind and you shared, and that is what i wanted all along <3

 No.964874

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>>964868
It's nothing like that.

 No.964904

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I wasn't sure she was going to make it yesterday. I could barely find a pulse with the pressure cuff, and it was way too irregular to actually do anything with. O2 meter couldn't get a read for the same reason. Skipped beats all over the place, almost no ventricular contraction, and she's been through so much that she's barely holding together mentally. She's too scared of most procedures to be willing to risk them, and not always for bad reasons.

I mean. When I was driving to the hospital I kept checking to see if her head was still upright, planning what I'd do if she was unconscious when I got there, or if she was dead. Didn't help that she was trying to talk about the same thing. Random paranoia for the doctors. Funeral arrangements. The same as every time really but the vitals weren't like this the last time.

And I mean I'm exhausted. Work has been hell and I've been shitting water for the past month. I have huge spans of time I cannot account for.

 No.964906

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>>964904
oh god, that is tremendously stressful, and just an awful situation...

i'm sorry, i don't know what else i could say other than that...

>hugs

it sounds like the situation has really taken a toll on your mental and physical state of being. I know you are doing the best you can for her, but can you promise me to take some time to make sure that you are also okay too?

 No.964907

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Thinking about making more ice.

Alcohol.

Waiting.

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 No.964910

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>>964907
hey tracer!
>hugs and kajis <3

more ice eh? are they gonna be in the shapes of cute little animals?

 No.964912

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>>964910
No, I just cut them in cubes.

 No.964913

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>>964912
what if you tried to make them into spheres?

 No.964914

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>>964912
>>964907
... cut?

>>964906
>>964909
It's the ongoing situation. Year... three now of the cardiac issues. Same intensity.

 No.964916

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>>964914
if i could, i would hold you and wouldn't let go until you know you were loved <3

 No.964917

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>>964913
I can, but overall I feel it's a waste of time. Only added benefit would be for something I want to be watered down slightly slower.

>>964914
I make ice in one large block, partially freezing it so no air pockets form. Air pockets make ice melt faster and is weaker structurally overall. So I trim off excess ice from the block. I make roughly 2"x2"x2" cubes of ice that i store in ziplock bags to re-freeze to harden and keep fresh.

 No.964920

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>>964917
i din't know that, i am just an artsy guy, so i would love to make ice that isn't cubed for the fun of it ^^

how are you tonight, my friend?

 No.964921

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>>964920
Two ways to make it, both are more effort than it's worth. First is to carve up cubed ice into a sphere. Second it to use a mold that's submerged into the ice block you'll be creating. Balancing issues and air pockets, meh.

I'm alright.

 No.964924

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>>964921
what i would want to do is to take those  old creepy candy monster creators, and make monster cubes and putting them into pitchers <3

that's good! do anything exciting this summer so far?

 No.964926

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>>964924
If you'd like.

Work.

 No.964928

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>>964926
will do! probably not, i just love flights of fancy :PP

ahhh, is all going well in your work world? i remember things were a bit dicey last time we talked

 No.964929

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>>964928
Oh well.

Not really. Two more people quit. So it's basically all lower workers and then corporate, no management to speak of currently.

 No.964932

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>>964929
oh dear... that does not sound like a very stable structure for the workplace ://

how are you faring in all this?

 No.964933

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>>964932
I'm there, against my better judgement.

 No.964936

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>>964933
such loyalty! not a lot of people would stick around hard situations like that!

that's very admirable <3

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>>964937
well i find it admirable at least :33

 No.965003

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I thought that the burst of writing that I did earlier in the week would be the last of me for a while, creatively... but I managed to do even more today. I'm very pleased. How is everybody?

 No.965005

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>>964936
>such loyalty!
Indeed, a lotta loyalty, for a hired gun!

 No.965006

Well, largely how I need to catch up on a lot of drawing commitments.

and, for once, how to spend a bunch of money I've acquired from commishes and my birthday yesterday. I did get a few shirts, but could stand to get one more. From there, there are of course games and a few things I could stand to replace. I need to like, sit down and write a friggin list

 No.965030

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>>965003
Congrats on the creative juices!

Im hoping mine will resume soon as i finally get a place and time for such things.

 No.965788

>>964904
This is one of those times that I wish I could give you a real hug, or drive to you and take you out to lunch somewhere and get your mind off of things for a bit...

 No.965802

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>>964904
Sounds awful...

 No.965931

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i love the feeling after doing a lot of good work

it's so nice <3

 No.965979

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>>965931
>>965931
That's a feeling that exists?

 No.965999

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>>965979
it certainly does!

>hugs and kajis <3

give it a shot! say you will do X amount of work! and then when that is done, you play games or go for a walk!

maybe even eat a food!

 No.966004

>>965999
Oh, I meant more the "doing GOOD work" part. Not sure I have ever tried that :p

 No.966010

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>>966004
i've always tended to favor the effort of the work over the perceived quality

so if i do the time, then quality will come eventually :))

and i believe your stuff is wonderful quality my friend <3

 No.966015

>>966010
o stap it you

I did spend a good chunk of yesterday drawing a more gruesome panel than I usually do, so now I keep fidgeting over wether or not it looks any good.

 No.966023

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>>966015
no :33

that is the problem with "gruesome" panels, it doesn't exactly follow the traditional ideas of what looks good or not :PP but i'm sure you'll find the right balance of horror and grotesque :))

 No.966025

>>966023
Well it's still my drawing, so it's not like it radically changed style or anything. I am just hoping it's effective in context.

It's one of the two main important shots of this story. Gotta work.

 No.966028

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>>966025
well, i know you will work on it to make the best it can be!

oh absolutely! if it is one of the key moments, then it needs to work super duper!

 No.966030

>>966028
But I might not be capable of doing them justice!

 No.966036

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>>966030
the greater injustice would be to not try at all! i know you will make something really heart rending and soul crushing!

in the best way possible :))

 No.966038

>>966036
I hope not, cause it's supposed to mainly just be kinda brutal.

 No.966047

>>966038
>>966038
oh! then i hope it's super brutal!

 No.966050

>>966047
I mostly just hope it's finished on time.

 No.966056

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>>966050
you will! i know you will :))

 No.966057

>>966056
Three pages left, two weeks. Iam a dumbass and shoulda done way more way sooner, but as usual I fail at beings mart or sensible

 No.966361

Lol shit I missed the chance to answer a job ad I saw 2 days ago, it's already gone.

 No.966372

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>>966361
That freakin sucks.

You should go over and put in a resume anyway, incase they don't like the new guy

 No.966376

>>966372
That's the plan, writing to all "competitors" too.
I just prefer concrete ads over general faffing application letters.

 No.966383

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>>963354
>Merry Christmas everyone!
Is Rudolph a Mary Sue?

 No.966398

I have just been analyzing my day, my thoughts, trying not to lose the course in this dangerous sea.

Many things to do, people suggesting I am losing my time... and the tiredness won't let me alone soon.

 No.966409

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 No.966416

>>966409

It has been a while, Ms.Ella.
How are the pet-fish?

>>966412

Hm?

>>966413

Hello, Anon.

 No.966418

>>966398
Rest easy.

 No.966419

>>966416
Hey Hispa

 No.966432

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huh? didn't think this thing would still be up!

merry christmas i guess!

i am having a bit of a argument with myself on the direction of my youtube channel.

i feel like i want to change it, but that would mean doing a bit of housework and changes to accomodate it

>>966383
nah, rudolph isn't a mary sue. he's picked on and bullied, has many doubts of his ability, and his one difference allowed him to save the day. that's really far from mary sue

if anything, it shows that Rudolph is in a toxic environment and the only reason why he's liked is because of his utility. Rudolph really should run off with the girl reindeer and go somewhere where he isn't just a tool for the machine

>>966398
>hugs and kajis <3

wazzup dude?

 No.966433

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>>966432
It's cause we all wuv woo too much to let it go away!

 No.966434

>>966432
Merry Christmas Star

 No.966437

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>>966433
esh!

>hugs and kajis <3

you are a wonderful gift to me and the rest of ponyville <3

you are the perfect guy to ask actually!

i want to sorta change the direction of my channel, and i wanted to know what you would think. I feel that you will see where i'm going with this.

With my writing, kung fu, and school coming up soon; i haven't been able to focus on my animation as much as i would like. So i'm thinking of switching to a short, animatic story form, with rather limited animation like Emirichu or Wolfychu (no i'm not gonna put chu at the end of my name)

but that would mean i would have to put my night in the woods thing on hiatus while i switch to this other format.

do you think i should do that?

>>966434
merry christmas wheat <3

>hugs and kajis <3

how are you this holiday season?

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>>966439
oh no! but aren't you worried that you will get coal?

 No.966441

>>966437
Well that depends. Are you more focused on telling anecdotes than on your bigger project? Which one do you want to release the most?

Given how little I've actually produced so far this year in videos, and how I constantly fail to have a schedule, I might not be the right guy to ask.

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>>966440
I don't really want anythying anyways

 No.966443

What's the deal with the Christmas wishes anyway?

 No.966445

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>>966441
well if i do switch to this format, it would definitely be little life stories and anecdotes, the kind of slice of life stuff you would see from jaidenanimations or odd1sout.

>huuuuuuuuuugs <3

>>966442
humble as always wheat!

>gives you a plate of cookies <3

merry christmas!

>>966443
because it's christmas time!

>hugs and kajis <3

duh :33

 No.966446

>>966445
Yeah that's what I gathered. That still leaves the same question. Would you rather produce more regularly, or mostly produce finished animation pieces?

I mean the former will be practice either way, even if it is limited animatic form, but it's really up to you to figure out what kind of content you want it to be.

Meanwhile I still can't wrap my head around the drawing tools in an animation program or how to draw something that actually looks nice in it.

 No.966448

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>>966446
i actually do wanna be much more regular of a video maker. as much as i love my other animations, they have taken multiple months to make. I would love to have a regular upload schedule with a somewhat regular release date.

and you got personality for days, and that's more important than the quality of the work :))

but you also have quality, so you good either way ^^

 No.966451

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>>966445
I dunno what the frigth is my issue

 No.966452

>>966448
Eh, hopefully once this comic is out of my system and I don't fret over that anymore, I'll go back to more videos. It's embarassing to have made so few in like half a year.
Just sketched the last three pages and have no more plans for the rest of the month though, so I should be able to crank them out now.

Neither of that has to do with my point about not understanding how the hell the drawing tools in animation programs work. I WOULD like to give it a go, but I can barely make a line look halfway right. I have NO idea how people draw WELL in these programs.

 No.966453

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>>966451
while giving and sharing are important. it's also good to know when to receive the love and gifts that friends and loved ones have for you

if it is hard, i can understand that. but it doesn't make you less deserving <3

>>966452
once you finish that comic, you are going to feel like you are walking on air! i believe that!

honestly, from my understanding with animate, i didn't understand much going in, even after watching tutorials. honestly it's just a ton of trial and error and stuff like that

 No.966454

>>966453
>>966453
Hopefully. I have fretted so. Much over it this month, and co stantly been unable to motivate myself. And now today, when I am gone all day, I for once feel excited to draw it. Maybe because these last few pages are silent and fairly macabre, which I haven't done much of before.

I suppose. I guess it's also cause all tutorials show you how the program works and what each tool is, but not do much how to USE them. I am accustomed to having tons of color layers for drawings. It weird me out man.

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>>966454
it sounds like you are gonna have a lot of fun with these last pages! let me know how they go!

it's a different beast! that's for sure!

so you think my change to short animatics is a good call then?

 No.966456

>>966445
Is it though?

 No.966458

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>>966456
absolutely!

>gives you a christmas present

merry christmas <3

 No.966459

>>966453
Are you ok star? Worry about chu

 No.966461

Estaball too. Even Ein.

 No.966462

>>966455
>>966455
Can't. Don't THINK I can show it off in full anywhere until December or some such

Sure - if you wanna be regular, it's much more feasible, and it'll be practice either way. When I was doing weekly Speedpaints, despite me ending it since I couldn't keep up, I saw rapid improvement.

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>>966459
>>966461
um, i'm fine really

are you okay though? you seem to be acting a bit different, wheat

>>966462
haha! fair enough! alright  no spoilers then!

aight! thanks for your input! i'll have to talk to a few people first, but i feel confident this will be the direction to go :33

>hugs and kajis <3

thank you! you are a wonderful friend!

 No.966467

>>966465
I mean it's an 8 page horror comic with a very simple premise. Not that much to spoil.

I try.

What up otherwise?

 No.966470

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>>966465
Ignore that.

Are you enjoying Christmas?

 No.966471

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>>966467
still! horror needs to keep its stuff hidden! so no spoilers!

<3

i'm doin good! it was hot as heck today! but i taught a couple of classes, and worked on some project stuff ^^

i did have this fun incident where i slowed down to let people onto the highway, and it made some lady behind me mad, so she pulled around my side, honked at me, and flipped me of while saying "fuck you, asshole"

like, what exactly did i do to you? did my slowing down get you fired or something? i mean, you aren't acting like you deserve your job anyways!

>>966470
okay ^^

absolutely! it was a bit warmer than i expected of the christmas season, but it was still a nice day  ^^

taught a couple classes, worked on some stuff, and had a good day ^^

what about you?

 No.966476

>>966471
Ah-ah! Mine us full daylight horror, baby!

Neat. I had one of my workshops Wednesday. Good lord is it exhausting.

Road rage is a hell of a drug.

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>>966416
I haven't been doing much with fish surprisingly.

I am going to most likely just get a pet betta. The aquarium hobby is fun, but not when you don't have much room in your house.

How is Hispa? :3

 No.966481

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>>966476
oh god! nowhere is safe XDD

how did your workshop go? it sounds like it was a lot of work!

eeyup! i swear i'm gonna see some raging dude fly off the road someday into a dynamite factory :PP

 No.966483

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>>966478
Hi Ella ♥

>>966471
Work things.

I'm good at my job, and I like having something mostly production oriented to do.

 No.966484

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>>966478
>>966480
>hugs and kajis <3

merry christmas, ella <3

 No.966485

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>>966483
ah! so it sounds like you had a good day at work then :))

also, that picture is cute! who is it?

 No.966486

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>>966485
Uh. I suppose

I did work.



dunno

 No.966487

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>>966483
You are a good Wheat.
>>966484
Nuuu, I'm already stressing a christmas present ;_;

 No.966488

>>966458
Shouldn't have.

 No.966489

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>>966487
You're a good Ella.

Am being hard on Star for bad reaons. Star is very good to me.

 No.966490

>>966481
It was. Ten kids, three tablets, trying to make sure everyone got a turn. One of them was also clearly mildly special needs (his dad stuck around), which required a bit more patience and attention.

My beginning "lecture" on what digital art is and some basics of body language, structure and character design is still the hardest part, not because they aren't interested or it doesn't work, but because 11+ is such a shy age where kids tend to think someone will strike them down immediately if they ask or answer anything.

Once they get drawing though? It takes like ten minutes for chatter and such to start. And for fear of sounding schmultzy, seeing their faces light up when I recognize the character they're drawing feels great.

 No.966492

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>>966486
you are a wonderful worker, and an even more wonderful friend <3

also, you seem to be a bit more expressive today. it's very refreshing <3

>>966487
ahh don't worry! you'll find the perfect gift!

and just having you here in the thread is a wonderful gift in itself <3

>>966488
no take backsies <3

>>966490
hehe, it sounds like you had a good class overall! and please feel as shmultzy as you want, i really appreciate it <3

it's a lot of work, but it's also very rewarding <3

 No.966493

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>>966492
Ah. Do I?

That is... concerning.

 No.966494

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>>966489
Are you remembering to take care of yourself? Don't pull a me and wind up in the hospital! Being low on potassium is no joke!

 No.966495

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>>966494
I work in a fucking hospital doing potassium tests all damn day

 No.966496

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>>966493
it could be concerning depending on the context

but it can also be relieving and important for bonding with friends too <3

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>>966495
Then why werent you there to smack my shit and tell me to take better care of myself?

 No.966498

>>966492
Oh sure. And apparently one of them showed up for BOTH workshops, SO I think I got a regular student there in the future.

 No.966499

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>>966496
The context is three beers and a fifth of whiskey.

>>966497
Literally not my job.

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>>966498
those are wonderful students! i've always cherished those repeat ones

is the kid cool?

>>966499
ahh, do pace yourself please :33

 No.966502

>>966500
>happy road petting noises

>>966501
Well if he joins my regular classes once those start out, I'll call it a success.

He seems to be. He definitely surprised me by drawing Banjo-Kazooie of all things.

 No.966503

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>>966502
L-like roadkill?

 No.966505

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>>966500
I'm not a doctor. I'm not a nurse. I don't know crap about treating humans. I do not ever interact with patients. For ten hours a day I keep the heavy machinery churning because

>>966501
It's hard not to. I'm all out.

 No.966506

>>966503
No! Like cheering up the toad!

 No.966507

>>966492
What is it?

 No.966508

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>>963354
>What have you been thinking about?


Ah'm a little drunk but I miss Boat

I want to tell him that he is The Machine!

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>>966502
absolutely! if he's going to your workshops a lot like that, then i'd say your chances are pretty good!

it sounds like he has a ton of enthusiasm <3 and banjo-kazooie is awesome!

>>966505
ahh, well probably for the best then!

eat plenty of pretzles!

>>966507
well, i don't know what you want for christmas, so i played it safe and made you cookies <3

>>966508
i miss boat too...

>he is The Machine

i fear i'm missing context :PP

 No.966510

>>966509
I have no food

 No.966511

>>966505
Oh yea?

Well I'll churn your machinery!

wait...

>>966506
Oh. Ok :3

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>>966510
I have Modelo

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>>966511
>>966514
I'm not the only one a bit inebriated, it seems.

 No.966517

>>966509
There have only been two this summer. But yeah, joined both apparently, and he signed up for those before meeting me, so clearly he is just interested in digital art in general. Really hope he shows up for the regular classes.

I have two more workshops in September in a bigger town, so let's see if that pays off. I need to know if those joining it are in a slightly higher age bracket though.

 No.966518

HE TOOK THE MODELO WITH HIM

NOOOOOOO

 No.966519

>>966511
>Pets Toadella

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 No.966521

>>966519
...
>toadella
This is going to be a thing now, isnt it?

 No.966522

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>>966516
i guess not!

perhaps i should start a tab :PP

>>966517
i hope he does too! that is exciting!

and more workshops sounds amazing!

>>966513
it took me 3 classes to realize that this isn't spanish!

 No.966523

>>966522
"Russian 1,2,3 and 4-never learned a word"

 No.966524

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>>966522
One hopes.

On another note, I found some sketches I'd forgotten about yesterday. This one could turn out pretty rad if I tweak Rhino a bit to be even bigger and more imposing looking. And I have another, bigger Spider-Man drawing similar to this planned, so this might make a good companion piece.

 No.966525

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alright everyone! i need to hit the sack! goodnight and merry christmas!

>>966523
lol that is hilarious XDD

>hugs and kajis <3

goodnight ella!

>>966524
damn dude! that looks nice! i would love to see you work on it and give it the old razzle dazzle! i always loved your art <3

>hugs and kajis <3

goodnight esh!

>>966516
>hugs and kajis <3

goodnight wheat!

>>966507
>hugs and kajis <3

goodnight <3

 No.966526

>>966525
Night Star

 No.966527

>>966525
Sleep well dood

 No.966539



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