>>1915>I'm actually pretty curious on peoples stances of the lolicon stuff, since that's not something that can be easily discussed IRL without causing aa massive fight.
Well mine is easily the most radical stance. And I'm collected enough to talk about it now, so why not.
You want my unadulterated stance? All sexuality is wonderful and beautiful, even pedophilia, on the (extremely important) condition that everything is consensual. Like I understand that there are some tricky problems with pedophilia, that by definition there can't be consent in that sort of sex, but there are still ways by which the pedophile can exercise their sexuality without hurting anyone (i.e. Lolicon, of the non photographic type). And I refuse to shame them for having those thoughts and feelings. I refuse to think of their 2d/animated porn as 'icky'. I would go as far as to say I refuse to ask them to keep it to the shadows too. I'd want to encourage them to be open about it and for them to be supported and loved for it.
And I can't really justify that stance without talking about myself, because my history really explains why I got to this position.
I'm sure everyone has a sad story. And mine is not nearly the saddest. I wasn't raped or molested or abused. I didn't have a creepy uncle who hurt me. In fact I really generally only had supportive people around me. But, I grew up in a less understanding time with a sexuality that is still practical unheard of. Demisexual. The word probably didn't even exist in the 90s. Back then, all I knew was that there was straight and gay. And God forbid if you were gay, because that was literally the definition of bad. No really, when something is bad, we'd call it "gay". That's so gay! I already had the self esteem of a lump of dirt as a kid, and didn't understand my own sexuality but I knew I was different. And if I wasn't straight I must have been gay. And gay was the definition of bad! And to fit in with my friend group, I had to say it too, "that's gay".
Everything that was bad, was me. And I had to reaffirm that daily to my friends to fit in.
I had no role models who were gay that I could say "oh but he is gay and isn't bad!". So I just kept absorbing more and more hated for myself and my sexuality. And I started to do terrible things to myself, because I thought I was the most loathsome thing with no possible way of obtaining value as a human. Well, almost no way to obtain value. There were terrible ways in which I felt I could reach the point that my life was valuable. These things I did I'm not gonna repeat here (lol, it'd break site rules to do so), but they were abominable. This self harm continued, unending, in some form or another literally up until the point I started posting with a name, like weeks ago. I was doing things trying to hurt myself, and destroy myself, and ruin myself, for decades.
And, nobody even abused me! Talking to a friend that helped me get out of that hole, we landed on calling it cultural indoctrination. That just the culture around me at the time just convinced a young boy that it was his duty in life to destroy himself, that it was the right thing to do. And I did a pretty good job. I'm trying to heal now, but I completely burned out every trace of self esteem, every last bit of confidence, fucking everything that makes a person a human and not just a machine. I have almost no friends, I put no effort into caring for my body, I'm very distant from my family. And my perception of reality had been so incredibly warped and twisted, just to give you an example, I was trying to work myself up to cutting. I guess some people cut to ease emotional pain, but I wanted to cut just to cause damage to myself. Because the thing I was telling myself was that this was the role I was born into. That fulfilling my life purpose required me to do that. And I'm convinced I'd have started believing that voice, soon, maybe in the next few months if I hadn't been serendipitously knocked off that destructive path.
And all of this craziness, stuff I did to myself, stuff nobody here could even have imagined I was doing to myself just months ago, that all started with the idea that my sexuality was a bad thing almost 20 years ago. So, that is why I take the stance that I do. Because I'm not gonna pass on what happened to myself to anyone else.